Tag Crazy

I am so sorry, I apologize from now. I am addicted to this little thing. Perhaps it's my way of stress relief. So go makeyour own tags. These are mine hehhehee.

               

Can't sleep

Up at 3 am. Bad dreams. Really bad dreams. About work. Pathetic really. I am sure they are all at home sleeping soundly. Fantastic.

I work too much.  I suppose it fills the spaces where my social life bombs and where my friends are busy too. Shopping would fill the spaces quite nicely and lead to less stress (well mostly). Hum.

Mentally exhausted.

Luxury

Tiffany's Frank Gehry collection - I especially like the Torque and Fish collection. Mmmm. Hell all of them are wonderful. I figured I had something of worth to write, but it's gone. I've been distracted by pretty things.

I am resting today (finally), psyching up myself for a rough week ahead, full of thinking, communicating, designing, running up and down dangerous stairs.

Alas that is all.

Life Update 10.2.3

I'm absolutely exhausted, but feeling so great! I've been working this past month and so busy that I couldn't get a chance to buy shoes. What a world this has become. The horror of not being able to spend a worry-free weekend buying shoes. I think of work mostly when I'm off of work - or possibly smart phones. It's not the easiest thing to disconnect from working as people say. You don't switch the office off because this crap affects your entire being - well at least my job does, but I digress. I have other things happening.

Things to hurrah for:

Finally no more dialup! Hurrah!

I have a job! Hurrah!

I have clients who pay! Hurrah!

I have one sexy pair of shoes! Hurrah!

Ok so there are the downsides to all of this, but it's ok I'll focus on the positive. :D

I'm still in bed and staying right here all day. There is laundry to do though. Hmm. Remote control laundry system yet to be invented I believe.

In my spare "happy me time " I've been trying to reorganise my life, make my "Iwant" lists and trying to come up with more ways to increase my quickly disappearing income. Mr. Paye seems to love my money and will take a large chunk of it on a monthly basis. This is not including sudden bills I seemed to have involved myself unwittingly into. Haha. Bills. Am all grown up. It stinks but I am getting comfortable I suppose. Comfortable enough. 

I do like my job though. For now anyway :) I might be singing another story next month.

Current likies/wants:

iPhone - there is a huge debate going on with all these damn smart phones. While I don't want to become on of the sheeple I absolutely love that phone (Thanks Jus and Dre I'm now tainted). It's pretty and I am a sucker for appearances. Hah.

Shoes - it's difficult for me to get nice shoes locally so when I do find a good one at a good price I get really happy.

Handbags - please I need to find that perfect bag for a good price. Sigh.

That's all I will dare put here for fear that I will look like a consumer demon. I am going back to sleep... or to do laundry. 

I'll write again soon... I swear.

Forgiveness, NVC and starting over

I'm trying to forgive my internet for being such a bastard, but it's cool, I have let it go. I miss my friends so much, especially since I've been a bit disconnected from the world. I've been doing quite a large number of crossword puzzles to get my mind off of shit. You'd think I don't have a phone, but for the past few weeks I may have been down with the flu.

I was just catching up on my newsletters and read about NVC - non-violent communication. According to the article, I have to clear my throat chakra (yogi speak), which has clearly been blocked for a long time. There I always thought I was good at it, but how wrong was I. I'm a terrible communicator. There is nothing I even want to write here because it's too public, and I feel like deleting the past 8 years of my blogging life, and just starting over. 

I'm going through yet another transitional phase, where I listen to a few select songs, do the same things over and over, and withdraw into my mindspace. I only want to see certain folks, and be in certain places; comfortable and safe, friendly and inviting. Anything else is shut out mostly. I can't finish this post because I'm putting myself to sleep.

What would you pack?

Ok so the scenario is that you're packing to run away from your current life to your ultimate destination, your dream destination. One box is all you get, so what do you pack in your life box? 

I sat here,  wallowing in my inability to get out of the house because of the flu and looked around my room. Not much. I  haven't quite worked it out yet, but basically, I have the following list.

1. Laptop w/accessories

2. Portable HD with a ton of music/Mp3 Player

3. Macky (my sweet little monkey)

4. Blanket (huggable)

5. Moleskine notebook and good pen

6. Yoga mat (squeeze it in) 

7. Law Of Attraction book

8. Folder with important documents

9. Camera

That's it so far. This doesn't include light clothing and shoes. You can get that anywhere! It's amazing that when it boils down to those few things, that sometimes it isn't very much. I am trying to simplify my life, my handbag contents and surroundings lately.  

Sometimes it works and sometimes I am such a control freak I have to stop myself from packing extra lipgloss I will never use into my handbag. I admire guys who walk around with almost nothing. I like being organized and having everything I need just in case. My artist bud Jason is king of minimalism and I've been trying to follow suit. His wallet is just one little thingy with a few slots for cards. Amazing. Unfortunately I am too much of a control and safety freak for that one.

But I really have been contemplating selling or giving away all of my collected rubbish and just getting out of here. I have always wanted to, but the call is getting louder. 

I must find space to work though.

Poui

Poui trees on the mountain in April

Yes I'm late shut up. I'm now getting the chance to really go back and edit these old photos to post them up. The rest will probably end up on Facebook or something. This pic was edited down a bit from this one. This main photo has the distant waterfall on the right side - if you squint you can probably see its outline under the dip in the mountain. Too lazy to edit more. Oh and this view is from the Maracas Royal Road (where I stand to get a taxi) out to civilization.



The Trinidad "spring" time was wonderful this year and I'm sorry I just didn't have time to just sit outside or walk around and get some really nice photos. It extended to what June or something when the Savannah was really gorgeous with those yellow poui. 

These photos were taken back n the 40's or somethin gby my great grandad, SK Lai. Thanks to my cousin Jo who carefully archived his slides. These amazing shots are around the Queen's Park Savannah I've edited the colour and such however I could. He was a careful meticulous photographer and I've been told by someone who knew him, that he would just sit there and wait for that perfect time to fire the shot.

The old Barracks at the Queen's Park Savannah, Port of Spain

Pretty lilac poui by All Saints Anglican church

So next year for sure I shall be attempting to get all the nice flowers shot. I love pretty flowers and trees! This year felt wonderfully fresh. I don't know if it was just me, but the season was fantastic. I really hope I can spend some more time outside and really just take it in, be patient, not just with nature and the camera, but my own inner being. It's something I am carefully honing. To slow down is a great process and full experience of life. I'm starting to enjoy my life more and more now, and also since I have the time, I can carve it just the way I want it.