It's really early and I'm pooped again. I dunno how much energy I have to write this but I promised to post some stuff for a friend :) These are some newly written..fresh off the press songs that need a critiquing. I think they're awesome aready and don't need anyone's approval but my friend wanted an audience so to speak.

This is the first one.

close your eyes and fade away
no one loves you any way
close your eyes and stop the tears
no one cares about your fears
close your eyes and pretend to smile
it'll all be over in a little while


close your eyes he said to me
i'm not the one who'll set you free
so let me go and say goodbye
no i can't just stay a while
close your eyes and i'll walk away
you forget i never said i'd stay




i watched him go i waved goodbye
i did my best i didn't cry
he didn't pause he didn't turn
it was a lesson i had to learn
i let you go i set you free
but then you'd never belonged to me




i closed my eyes and walked away
you don't know why but i couldn't stay
i didn't stop and i didn't turn
it was a lesson i had to learn
you've let me go and you've moved on
it hurts so much that i was wrong


close your eyes don't fade away
the hurt is less than yesterday
close your eyes and stop the tears
give no mercy to your fears
close your eyes and learn to smile
it'll all be over in a little while

Lovely huh? Here's more.

denial

never more
you're gonna hurt me
never more
i'm gonna stay
never more
i'm your baby
never more
turn away

for so long i stayed
i waited
i had hoped that you'd come through
you let me down i'm disappointed
and now i am through with you

now i'm gone and you can't have me
now i'm gone i'm finally free
you thought i loved you
you weren't wrong
but you didn't think i was strong
and now i'm gone and you can't have me
now i'm gone and i am free

go away and let me be
now's the time i live for me
you say you're sorry i see you cry
but i don't stop to wonder why
it doesn't matter it's too late
i'm better off at any rate

turn away
cause i don't wanna see you cry
i don't wanna know you're sad
i don't need to remember
all the good times that we had
cause i am free and i'm not sorry
i am free and i am gone
cause i got tired of staying waiting
i am free and i've moved on

So all of this is pretty hot stuff I think. I need not say anymore :) You guys give me some feedback on it so I can pass the info on ok?

Meanwhile....if you're still coherent...my life is so interesting. How easily my mood can swing from happy to outright anger and perhaps some sadness?

I am human after all with flaws and the whole shabang...but I don't consider myself un-nice. I don't like being hated. I try to be cool with everyone. Some people just need help. I guess it's their loss. Tsk. *lets it slide*
Ok that's off my mind...I think. Cool Trace cool....jus cool. Very very cool.

Oh my. Deja vu...a glitch in the matrix!! They changed something - oh no....or something. lol. Ok sssh... it's the sleepiness. Don't think I'm like totally off my rockers. I'm only quarter way off - long way to go still.

Bon nuit. Will write more when I eat some Duracell.