Why am I awake? Tell me why...why do I keep doing this to myself. Dying inside all over again. My friend's lyrics come in and just have me thinking again. Think think.

Why can't people understand human needs? Why people need love and understanding? Too logical... no good. Oh man...disaster awaits the one who just doesn't get a clue. By that time it'll be too late.

It's been a really...weird night. I'm awake at 3:30 am. Help? *breathe* Time for the ole meditation thing I think.

Moving on by the way is just overly f*cked.

In other news, I should be adding a new blog, just for my friends. Stef's already agreed to participate, so has Rav, and I'm sure Stac will. My main people for now...

Stac thanx for your e-mail. Love you much! Thank you thank you thank you. I need love after this more than stressful night. Some kind of assurance that I am still loved, wanted...whatever.

Looks like a lovely day for hibernation. Ok so everything's happening at once and I'm not in a good mood. Sue me. No it's not PMS - a little late for that.
There was more to be said tonight but I can't seem to recall anything.

Except that Teletubbies is a really excellent show for toddlers. They really have fun with it. I've seen it for myself, and even though it is sorta gay to us older folks, for them it's cool. I like..respect the show now. I am getting old... argh.

Guess it'd be a good time to advertise my birthday now? It's the 7th..this Thursday! (Yes Rav you can write it down this year) I expect many greetings from afar and e-cards and love and presents lol...yeh and a big surprise when I get nothing.

Life isn't fair...once again I realise this. Oh joy. Morons all around me. Trace when are you going to drop them?
*die*