New plan. Search for funding and beg everyone to sponsor me until the very last moment :) I'm not giving this up now...I'm so far into the game it's not funny.

The state of my relationship with my father is unbearably annoying. The bastard pissed me off this morning telling me a whole lotta bull when I am just not in the mood. I always keep whatever I have to say lying deep within myself ...all the time wanting to tell him to bugger off. That might cause me being put out of the car, house, etc etc. Joy.

Last night I went to sleep relatively early and slept through. The other bitch (madre) wakes me up late and expects me to get dressed in what 5 fucking minutes. He starts the car and drives out - I barely have time to rush outside and the lock on the fucking door is giving trouble. *runs to car* stewps. I'm still sleepy I don't know why. So I'm there just casually closing my eyes and he's like...wake up! why are you looking so sleepy? (Because I'm fucking sleepy asshole and you're not bleeding or having a big ugly headache). Very good. I say nothing. If I do that won't be nice. See I'm good. Tsk. No and it wasn't my fault I was late... I already bless the bastards by getting ready in like 10 minutes, breakfast, bath, included. Fuckers.

Sleep necessary. I am way too stressed out. I need this vacation next week. I need time away from the bitches and quality time with my friends. Ugh. Must...get...thru...rest...of...week.

*head aches*