The first thing I thought about this morning was Woman shut UP I want to sleep (this would be my mother talking as loudly as she possibly could on the phone)
followed by aww fuckk today is monday. Joy. So I rolled out of bed. The dream I was having wasn't exactly peachy either so it was all for the good I suppose. Not like I can remember it now.

Last night/this morning I was up at 2 talking to Stac and Stef on MSN. I happened to open it while talking to Adrian...hm - I just don't know what's going on there. So far I'm just trying to be distant somehow. Maybe space is the answer - maybe space will get me more annoyed. I'm tired of me fucking up relationships by being attention demanding caused by a lack of proper distraction. I also react badly to shitty situations stemming from my inherent bitchiness/brattiness. *sigh* Lethal.

I need me a good computer Hell yes it would solve most of my problems. Hell fuckin yes.

So I don't hate boys - most of the time. Maybe they're better when they're unreachable. Maybe I'm too comfortable with my life, with him. I'm doomed. I will give him props whoever settles me down. Hah.