Ugh. Mood.

Once again I strike out at the people err well person I love. Yep I'm slowly fucking myself up again. Whoopee. Will I ever learn? Hmm. Will they ever understand? Hmm.

How come I always blog when I'm unhappy. People would think I'm always like this. Well I'm not. I'm usually cool and calm and collected and smiling and bouncy and funny (I'd like to believe so). It's such a big fucking difference to when I'm down and out and crying and in a generally puddle of emotions. I've probably mentioned this before but I hate it. I so hate it.

I hate hurting people but I do anyway. Me with my cynical self. Me and my attitude. I suppose I should be learning from mistakes and striving to be a better person and shit. Joy. When I get hurt it doesn't help either. Sure I should be thanking the heavens for blessing me with with these learning experiences. Yay. There aresome days when ya just don't feel like appreciating it ok. Frigit.

Happy birthday TK!

So I'm supposed to go to the beach today. No honey, just parents and annoying little brat cousin. Ugh. Help. Send me scopable items or good company. No I do not appreciate my parents' company - I'm a bitch like that. Excuse me for not wanting to be around old people.

Oh yeh and rabbit rabbit - let's hope this month is cooler thanlast. Or something.