I'm listening to Dido again. Why? I dunno. Just relaxing I suppose. I suppose I could turn on the radio but I haven't done so in so long.

I just want to feel safe in my own skin
I just want to be happy again
I just want to feel deep in my own world
but I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore"

Ok so maybe I don't totally feel like that but I don't know I'm in a little bit of a mood. I keep thinking about the vicious cycles of broken relationships. You don't give me attention you don't get mine. I try to give leeway, you take advantage of it. I switch off. I suppose I'm to blame? Whatever. I'm tired blaming myself for the unthinking uncaring attitude of people.

I'm taking Vasograin� for my headaches these days. Migraine stuff - they work pretty fast so that's a good thing. I'll choose it over Panadol� any day.

"I'm tired and bored of waiting for you and all those things you never do, cause it's me and my life...it's my life."

I've been surfing through some women design sites. Very cool. Inspiration to revamp my site for sure. I'm striving to become as cool as they are or hey even better. Something to that effect.

Yesterday (or was it the day before?), I visited my old art teacher. Ms.Garcia (formerly Mrs. H as we know her), was surprised to see me of course. I think it's maybe been a year since I've seen her. I've lost count. Time just flies. So we talked a little bit before I headed home. The lady is just amazing - some may say eccentric, others clear gone and off her rockers. Oh yeh she's a true artist. Mad. Uh huh. It's cool though. Woman of faith, she dares do what everyone else shys away from, at ungoldy hours and with a car that could (and has) poofed on her many a time. She's got a new car to use now though phew.

She always encourages me to get what I want, by any means necessary. She's cool like that. Anyway maybe that's enough rambling about that for now. She did say to think about money instead of an artjob now...but I really do want to get me an artsy job. I told my boss today that I would be leaving, so she has to find someone else. :)

/me=happy bunny.

Today I met Avin. What an anti climax. I happened to go on MSN and there he was. He asked me where I was I said work - come. He was like ok ah comin now. There you have it. We had lunch and then parted to get home. Finally! It's been a few years well I've known the boy. Phew. Is there anyonepending to meet? Hm yeah ok a few.

Nice long blog. Well I'm bored. I'm considering geekerising myself. Uh huh. I'm way too backward dammit. Time for getting in with the trend I suppose. Follow the crowd, be one of the suckers who get sucked into the wannabe geek vortex. Baaa.

Maybe I should stop writing now? *whining sound* Fine. Gnite. Peace to all the souls that are roaming unable to rest. Looking back, I've really strayed from topic. I've also managed to listen to a rave cd after the Dido episode. I feel better.