Why am I up again? I have stuff to do today. I could have sworn that was going to be my last post for the night. Apparently not. While I get cosy with my solitude, once more - no one really talking...everyone asleep I can now blog...properly. No distractions. Feels good I suppose, though I've definitely been enjoying the company. Especially when the company is damn good company.

I haven't been this quiet inside my mind for a while. Alone with my blog. Aww how sweet. *snuggles*

I'm torn between two worlds, between people, between the choices that once again plague me. It's there yet it's not and I'm just sorta in limbo. I keep doing this over and over. I'll never learn to let go - sometimes. Or do I let go too fast? Confusion.

Am I a bad person just because I can't seem to keep a relationship healthy? Because it seems to be always my fault, my boredom, my attitude that thwarts the balance of things? However, c'est moi. Maybe I'll never settle down. Not knowing what I want is hell...but I suppose it's "fun". Heartache? Fun? Har. Sometimes...at least it's living.

I'm looking forward to more. Sorry random little vague comment. I hope I keep you guessing. Course looking back I realise how many meanings that holds for me - geezus...

It sucks to be a chic and being complicated and artsy all in one. Acceptance with grace? Mmm well...I don't know. Sometimes yes sometimes no. So I'm fighting it down to the last feather...incoherency imminent as you can tell. It's after 3 and I'm sleepy but I'm trying to clear things up a tad.

My horoscope just coinkidinkally mentioned that maybe I'm hiding something from myself and I have to be honest with self in order to move along. Obviously. Not quite sure what it is yet. I'll be stuck in limbo forever. Erk.