That cold empty lonely shitty feeling.

Please....stop fucking sending greetings. I'm not in the mood. As Richard rightly put it, Valentine's is capitalist fuckery. Agreed baby!

Stop it! Stop torturing me with that false love, with false everything. Stop the bullshit!! I need my life back, I need my head. Dammit. Fuck you and your insanity.

These songs and their appropriate lyrics (bah!) :

"No me ames, porque estoy perdido
Porque cambie el mundo, porque es el destino"
...No me ames, para estar muriendo
Dentro de una guerra llena de arrepentimientos ~ Marc Anthony

"Just when I think I�m winning
when I�ve broken every door
the ghosts of my life, they�re wilder than before
...But I�m feeling nervous
now I find myself alone
the simple life�s no longer there
Once I was so sure
now the doubt inside my mind
comes and goes but leads nowhere" ~ Tenth Planet

"Universe inside of your heart,
you gotta let me know,
so you can be free baby,
you wanted it so much and now that it's over
you don't know what you want" ~ Savage Garden

"Take me home, only fair I get my way" ~ Sophie-Ellis Bextor

Rory surprised visited me this evening. Wow indeed. Trying to get info out of me is like getting water out of a rock. I ducked all I could, still didn't say everything. I'm such a bastard that way. He says I'm not a bastard.
I had an abnormally long phone convo with Dirk tonight. (Somehow that keeps happening) We ranted about the fuckery of relationships, of people, Libra hoes, getting caught by parents, Sagittarian women being too nice for their own good, hoish behaviour, everyone sucking salt, and so forth.

It's been a day of introspection, where I ponder about moving on. The response is the same. Don't be a stupid ass. Don't wait. Move the fuck along. I know that much... hell I've always known that, I'd give myself that advice. It's harder than I thought, yet on the other hand, with the right distraction, oh hell yeh I'd be on...and on.
Oh well. As always, I'll remain the same. Grovel if you want it bitches. Of course that t-shirt idea stands... course that would be termed slutty now wouldn't it?
Guys are all willing to be used. Girls aren't. Why? They're termed slutty. *sigh* How stupid.

Uggghhhhhh. I'm tired of couples, I'm tired of love, of relationships, or lack thereof. I've blogged this before but I can't help repeating myself. Tired of hurt, anger, bitterness in everyone around me. Tired of all these damn issues. Grrrrrrrr.

Ohh finally something uplifting!
Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Hmm aww how sweet. Avin sent a V-day card. Aww. I really should send one back, but I can't...I hope he understands my position. I am hating today. Nice card though. Thank you.

Ok now what the fuck is this about? Good Wives Guide? Hello? You must be kidding me. Had to be the chauvinist sexist pig bitch (Bruce - oh yes Rav your friend) to send this. Asshole. I hopefully have scared him off temporarily by saying "Fuck the Bible".
Lightening bound to hit anytime now. *looks around tapping toes*

*mumbles something about work and getting into it to forget about people*