Instead I was up after 2, talking to him who is not well. I am scared really. Looking for him online, hoping he got through the night alright. I need to confirm meetings and such today. Many things to do. Last night I was so panicky - not that I'm not now, but I also have to let it go. I have to live and let live, do what I can and just leave the rest up to God and or the fates...whatever it may be. I should make those calls now.

*takes sip of very strong coffee* Keep me awake today.

*looks sideways at radio* Listening to new stuff. Molotov. Rofl. It's just amusing to hear Spanish rapping. I am wondering if I got the right thing! Well it isn't Genitallica at least. Yes you heard it - Genitallica is an actual latin rap/rock group. One night my cousin and I were fighting sleep in a lanparty and well this came on tv...mother of mercies.

Anyways I need to make calls and such. Still hoping he gets online. If he's sleeping that will be alright.