I should clean. I should do some more work. I should get things together. For the past couple weeks I'm just feeling nothing.
I hate expecting "the call". That call you know and you feel coming. Sunday night after the wedding, I came home chilled out and fell asleep pretty early. Around 12 my aunt called.
"Where's mom?"
"Uhh sleeping?"
"Oh because the hospital called and they said he took a turn for the worst"
"Ah crap" *looks up* "Uh wait the gallery light is on...let me check"
So the gallery light was on (only left on when someone is out). The car was gone so I knew something happened. I hadn't even hear the call earlier on because I was so unconscious. Usually I wake up when the phone rings.
After that I couldn't sleep. I ended up camping on the couch a while waiting for them to return. Not sure I would have gone if I knew...dunno if I can handle it. Hospitals make me queasy as it is - but seeing someone suffer is just unbearable.

I see other people with losses. Condoelnces to all - Stef. *hug*
Actually I did hug Stef last night. He got in safely. Ri got Stace and me to the airport - late but still in time and in any case. They went for food and eventually I found the boy. Somehow Jhagroo seems to get taller - else I'm getting shorter...even with 2.5" heels! Wtf! You'd think...hum. Anyways!!! I figure if we'd had more time I might have held up a "So Indian" sign. *giggle* Yay back to cussing Steffy mode! He'll be here a while so I have enough time to cuss him adequately.

I need new music!! I have no net and am going kooky!! I mean I haven't downloaded anything in over a month! What a tragedy! :( Send me music people. *sniff* I've had to be satisfied with my Rufus and Led and whatever else. Am too lazy to dig up in my mp3 CD's.

I *think* I looked purty on Sunday. Went to a nice little (ok no it was huge) Hindu wedding. Indian wear. Whee! My neighbour saved me and lent me an outfit and even shoes and jewelry. :) Yay! No am not posting the pictures.

What I will post is this - check my ugly hands out. *giggle* Yes those are my own nails. Mine mine mine. I've just been too lazy to cut them. I should but they look pretty with polish. Ah well.


That's the latest I think. I miss you all so much.

*hugs* especially for Vee.
*grin* for Dars. Omg! Haha mothers are amazing creatures. You gotta tell me what she said.

Saw an old friend last night at the airport looking rather delish. Shame he is taken. In his inebriated state you'd think I could have taken advantage of him. *halo* La la la la. I need recreation quite obviously.