fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

a return to love - marianne williamson

Absolutely terrified of so many things. That quote sits in my little file of important things thanks to James.

The perfectionist is battling the wabi-sabi, the imperfection's beauty. Feelings of inadequacy abound as I discover more strengths and weaknesses. It's very hard for me to accept my weaknesses and makes me want to try harder. Sometimes I am so tempted to throw in the towel but I know I should not because I have to learn and grow yadda yadda. Process rah rah. Have potential etc etc.

When does one give up? The correct answer should be that you don't. Guess it applies to any area of life. I suppose when you've reached a point where you're miserable trying so hard and it just isn't working you have no other choice but to let go.

Your support cannot be measured. Priceless. These days am not sure what I would do without Rich, James, Marc and other such folks. Thank you for believing in me when I can't seem to do it.

I think I'm just getting up from a stumble. Maybe I'll try more new things tomorrow. Slowly slowly.