Yesterday I lost my entry because the stupid browser shut down. I'm at work, so let's see how fast I can do this before being interrupted :)

My weekend went so fast, I can't believe it's Monday and well the end of the month. Poof there April went. I've been working for a whollle month dude. Weird huh? So back to let's see Saturday.

After my first class, I hung around in town for a while, went absolutely berserk with bargain clothes, and bought some nasty tasting lunch. Never me again I say. People, remind me to stick with Chinese cooks in Chinese restaurants!!! Arghh. Excuse me for being cultural and biased when it comes to authentic stuff. Ugh.

I ended up going to a casino to hear my aunt's Latin band play later on. They so rocked, which is more than I can say about the other band. Hmm let's hope no one from there is a frequent visitor to my site, though it might make them realise how badly they need to lose the uhh badly dressed lead singer. She was reminiscent of a cross between a banshee and a chicken. Don't ask..horrific.

Gotta go eek!

Apparently Nigel's b-day is like in May. Talk about an early birthday present.

I've finished Chamber of Secrets. Yay! I've reached chapter 7 of Prisoner of Azkaban, so that's going well. These things are so so so cool. Wheee! I can't remember the last time I've been so swept away by a story.

"I wanna make you a star....hey now now don't you know it's not really that complicated" This is just a happy song. Swirl 360. They're hot but whatever happened to them? Hmm. Twin hotties..wooo!

It's late...I have my first tutorial session tomorrow. Wonderful :) Doobiedoobiedoo. I should sleep...but you know..ole Harry has got me in his clutches, refusing to let go until I finish 2 more chapters. Last night. my 3 extra chapters turned into maybe 6.

Ok..poofies for now. Back to my little wizard friend.

Uhm. Right now I'm figuring I'm better or it was just my allergies acting up making me feel like a total washrag. So was it Nigel's fault? Hmmm. *grin* Happy Birthday dude...with his new Palm V and all.

So hey I've been busy alright. Totally ignoring my blogging. I mean, what I should have been typing I wasn't. Blame it on Harry Potter. He's such a nice little wizard boy I can't help it. I'm addicted. I've been pulled into Diagon Alley Stef. I have I have! Sucked into the vortex. Dude. Whee!! I don't see how well they can make a movie out of this though.

*munches on chocolate thing* It's called Toco Loco. Rofl. Who the hell comes up with names for snacks? Mars, Snickers, Zoomers. Geezus. Don't even go there with Goldfish, which aren't even made out of real goldfish. Cheese cracker things that look like fishies? wtf.

Toco Loco. Hell. I shouldn't be analysing this but you really have to wonder. Damn I'm hyper. Hahaha. I wonder why. Chocolate fix? Hah!

So anyways I've got this small job to tutor a newbie computer user. That's cool :) Yay extra income...but for how long? Not like I want it to last long, but it's a gift from heaven. Meanwhile there's college stuff to study still. I have not received a reply to an e-mail I sent last night. Eeek.

I've gotten so much correspondance from them I almost think they love me and want me in their school..but how much huh? I need aid! Badly! Someone...let me win the lotto. God? Maybe I should play first, but you know...miracles like having a magic winning ticket appear in my hand might be accepted as such. I was kidding about AIB wanting me in their school - they apparently do. They don't know what trouble they've gotten themselves into of course, seeing as I'm totally crazy and that I like to give everyone trouble. No wait. I take that back. I don't like to give trouble, it just seems I end up always giving trouble. :-/

Sleepy now. Busy day. Dammit I need Potter!!! Just a little reading..not more than 3 chapters I swear! *pouts*

I feel slightly better thank goodness. Hmmm.

There is a possibility that I won't get to go to school this year. Just dandy ain't it? We're trying to get money/loans together. Whoopeeding. It's so amazing that the people with endless opporunities especially to go away etc, don't take them up and prefer to stay here, or go away and waste it all. People like me now who actually want to go are catching all hell. Life. Bah. Oh well.

I want to go check my art teacher for inspiration of some sort. I shall...eventually. Why do I need inspiration? I always need it. She provides me with like this boost of creativity, and her faith is enough for like 10 000 people... It's just insane to live like she does, yet it's probably the truer way to live. Randomizing again.

I should go to sleep or something.

Fuck this shit. I'm sick. I can't believe how contagious that boy was on Saturday night. Geezus Christ. I sat next to him. :-/ You think this is fair? No no no Trace has work, Trace has things to do, people to lime with, important money matters to attend to. Let's hope this goes by Saturday. I really cannot bear being sick. I need some drugs. Help help help!

In other news, my parents are going berserk with me :) Isn't that interesting? *shrug* I don't want to think about it because I'm naive and immature and stupid...and really not in a state of well-being to deal with it. Blah.

This tomato juice thing isn't helping. I need to hurt the boy who shared his germs with me. He also passed to oh..I'm figuring anyone within a one foot proximity. Ugh Nigel sucks. And I awrned him not to pass along his germies...but noooo.

My resistance? Low? Where? I've been happy dammit. Anyway whatever. Move along.

I at least had a good weekend. Saturday night I spent getting my ass kicked in a lan party, playing Quake. *pauses to wipe running nose* That was rather fun, despite being attacked (slaughtered mercilessly) like the newbie that I am and apparently acquiring the flu that I have.

I'll be collecting all the sympathy you can offer right about now. :) Thanks. *fades into sickypeople land*

Yesterday turned out rather interesting. It's after 4...good grief..I'm awake to tell the tale. Let's see, after being snubbed at the cinema since we were maybe oh..just an hour or so late, we went and played pool. Now, this was the first time that counted somewhat. The last time I tried, I was way too embarrassed and weirded out to do much...

See me, entering Grand C. Hopefully mom won't find out? She doesn't think it's becoming of young ladies to be in a pool hall. Oh well, there goes my training. *shrug* I actually don't know what's so bad about it... she just thinks it's a whole lotta men there and it's got this taboo or something...but dude..that's a perfect place to pick up! I just realised that...hm anyways.

Of course, I don't know about the whole stance and how to hold the damn stick thing. (omg - stick thing-I'm ashamed) Then there was a whole hip pivoting thing, ugh. Course I was heckled and laughed at and all the meanie things a newbie must experience. Thank God it was just Adrian - he's like...bad as it is being mean.

Heck...now I want to play more. Hahaha. Who would have ever thought...tsk. Isn't there a website around to help me learn? I'm just in awe period that I actually got the balls in pockets...viktoreee! rofl ass...

Tonight there's some lan party I'm going to tonight...hopefully, so that will be my weekend. Whoopeee? It's a helluva lot more exciting than nothing at least.

Look at the time. Another half hour just to blog. Arrrghhh. Everyone's gone to sleep except Dev. My ICQ list is...full actually, but most are asleep, or now going to, or from Russia...lol ok only one from there.

sleeptime. *doink*

Kasper has created his personal ode to me page hahahah. This is in return for me not mentioning him again on here. Poor child.

I'm suppose dto be organising a lime for after work tomorrow, but who knows if anyone will turn up but one. Tsk. Oh well. Emperor's New Groove...yay! Let's hope there aren't many kiddies in there...there's so much of them I can bear and no more. I'll probably miss half of Recess thing..but I didn't really want to see that...

*poof* Ded.

Dum dee dum. Haha, I'm supposed to have a nice long entry, but I'm just noottt in the mood. Anything over 5 lines to read looks like headache material. Sleeeppp.

It's gonna be one long day today. *sigh* In work now...wasting away...work? Where?

I wrote this 4.75 page letter this evening, while supervising (ie silently snickering @ suffering students in an exam). Good lord. Yes it was a 3 hour exam so I had ample time to clear my head and hurt my hand, which has become weirded out when a pencil is there. I type faster than I write man.

Back to that letter. I thought it would clarify what the hell has been going on in my head and life, but uhm, it didn't help. Maybe it was because I was falling asleep in the exam room. I hated having to be up in front with these little Math geniuses (and God knows what else) staring at me. Lol. It was kinda funny with them asking me to go to the bathroom and stuff. I felt...schoolmarmish. Ewwww.

I've been trying to complete this post forever and someone or something keeps distracting me hahah. The culprits know themselves. ARGH. It's been over an hour and I still can't get anything done. I should be sleeping too. Oh heck. *posts*

My goodness. After today, I'm even more confused than I was before. Thanx Adrian :p Geezus Christ... I shall not go into detail for fear of incriminating myself. Not like it wasn't a realllllyyy good day, but dude. It's amazing how like in 2 seconds, stuff can just turn haywire, confusion extremis, etc. Haha. I need Stac or Dars...well both.

My brain is so flecked up woo, but hey it's mad fun I think. I'm a true Saggie, my life is ever changing and exciting and I like it...a lot. Whee! Shit I gotta get out of this happy mood. After joy comes sorrow or something. Blah. That surely can knock the wind out of one's sail.

*sleep* That I SO need. *stretches* Oh yehh baby I can do my yoga tomorrow since I have to go to work late :) Yipee!

Happy Easter! Bunnies...everywhere uhm I think. ! Hmm this jersey I'm wearing is smelling of Sung :) Yum. I'm boredish so that's why these crazy little random thoughts shall be filling up the space today.

Bath Water - No Doubt Wooohooo!!! "Why do we choose the boys that are nasty?" More tabanca. Kinda.

I'm working from 1-5pm on Tuesday. Hahaha. It means I can get up LATE!!! Woohoo :)

I'm adding a new song to my list of tabanca thingys. Soul Decision - Ooh it's Kinda Crazy.
"Why don�t you take my hand, help me understand
�Cause I can�t figure out
What you�re thinking about
Why don�t you let me know"
Blah. Emotions or something.

My fave hot chic woman power song now is Lady Marmalade by Pink , Mya, L'il Kim n Christina Aguilera. Pink so rocks too. Wooo. This is just hot stuff. Gitchi gitchi ya ya da da. :) Despite the whole stripper/peep show/voulez-vous coucher avec moi thing, it's damn cool.

I also got a first look at the new Staind song/video "It's been a while". Nice nice nice. Angst, tabanca, rock, all in one. Haha how can that not be cool shit? Ok apparently I'm sleepy. Righto. Nap time.

Ay. Today was a most interesting day. My my. I went with my aunt to pick up her Canadian musician friend Jeremy. Now this dude is just hottt, as in musically gifted. Man. Rock on. So anyways, he's like the musical director of Atlantik, so we heard them going thru rehearsals for a concert in St. Lucia on Sunday.

Musicians are hot. Dammit. If it's one thing in my life I wish I did was music. Performance. Wooo. My friend Natalie is a musician too, and she says the hottest guys are musicians. Rofl...but that's another story altogether. Back to before I was distracted. Uhm right music. It is so damn cool, but I guess you have to have a gift for it, though I've noticed some people who make money without being very talented at all.

Music appreciation was my lesson for the day. I think. I also met this cool Martiniquan girl, so that was also educational. Then we went to the beach, with Jeremy driving. This was oh so hilarious. The dude was not driving hard or taking bends badly, but my aunt's friend was freaking out and drank like 2 Stags on the way. This is what a 20 minute drive. Rofl. Old age? Argh. I hate to bash but...rofl.

There were no decent looking guys on the beach. Maracas Bay. Starving for goodlooking people. No fun. At least the chatting was cool. I didn't even touch the water. They had been starving me so I ate a bake and shark (mom's tastes a lottt better), and chilled out.

Ace of Base - All That She Wants. This is one of my alltime faves! Woohoo. Maye I should sleep now. I've been chatting too much tonight to be concentrating properly onmy blogging.

On to today's actual post.

A nice casual day at work at least. I can't seem to fight the whole sleep thing. I've been popped since after work. I hung out with Dara helping her search for stuff, but the net at that time was slooowwwwww, then got a ride home with her :) Yay no extra walking required in hot sun.

OH before I forget, I have all 4 Harry Potter books. Muhahhahaa. I just have not had the time, err well energy to open them and start reading. That will be when the mood strikes and if I get extra bored in work. I have to remember to buy diskettes, film, and a Brita water bottle thing. Well the latter might have to wait. I'm already broke as it is.

My bank is messed up. Dude. I had the most annoying experience Tuesday. Just to withdraw some dinero to pay back my mom for some work clothes, it was this big hassle. Ugh. Too long a story to get into, but despite their whole mask of technologically sound/groovy banking system, they SUCK! In the end I didn't get my own frickin money, after waiting oh..half an hour. Biatches.

It's Easter. Bunnies galore. I'll probably not be in church. I think last year I ended up in a little "church" in Balandra. What an uneventful weekend that was. No beach this year thankfully. I'm so glad. I'm void of seeing this extremelly saccharine lovey dovey perfect couple. You know the types you just want to disappear from in front your face because they're so cute and perfect. These pretty people. He's hot, she's pretty. Blahhhh. Die.

Ok. Another thing that is seriously bugging me tonight. This fcking ISP keeps disconnecting me!!!! Crap, this is probably the 5th time this happened for the hour or so I've been here. Let me post now not forgetting to ctrl-c, and I shall hold onto my already dwindling sanity. *sigh* Here we go again. Disconnected. Assholes.

Blogger dearest has been giving some trouble. Naughty thing. Last night's post will be here now.

Wednesday April 11th
Where was Avin? Lol. Dammit dude, I got all stood up...he's probably cussing me or something though because we didn't actually finalise last night. If he forgot well I'm all hurt :-/ Apparently it's not our time to meet or something.

"But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had" - Vertical Horizon
All of their music is so sing-alonglike. Cute or something. Actually this is a bit tabancaish though I notice all my fave songs these days are. Hahahaa. Here's a rundown.

* trouble - coldplay (yum. I love Michael Ross for playing this)
* never had a dream come true - sclub7 (*gasp* teeny bopper band)
* thank you - dido (oldish and overplayed but i'm still in love with it)
* hanging by a moment - lifehouse (yeh yeh yeh i've loved it since the 1st time i heard it...they used to play it oh once a week)
* yellow - coldplay (hmm a double whammy)
* si no te fueras - marc anthony (we're getting latin here)
* a rose in the wind - anggun (if you never heard it get it)
* anything from A Perfect Circle and Sarah McLachlan
Depressing isn't it? Lol. Good grief.

Tomorrow is the last day of work till Tuesday. How can one be unhappy at such a thought? Despite my short working hours, uhm, it's welcoming. I don't have to look that good for like a week! Actually I may have to if I intend to step out of my house. Oh well. Hey at least I don't have to wear work clothes!

I'm feeling so strange, not the normal strange, but something is going on and I'm feeling funny/uneasy...I don't know what it is. It's unsettling and half scary. Maybe I just need to sleep. That might be a good idea all now since I should try to be all alert and stuff for work. Today was terrible..well somewhat ok just one thing bugged me. Always a learning experience in there. It's been slow otherwise.

I'm feeling achy all over. Time for some yoga. My shoulders and upper back feel sore and funny. Maybe it's that what's bothering me lol. Whoa. There's some greatttt breeze blowing through my window. Seriously relaxing, cool fresh, sweet air. I'll miss this for sure when I leave these shores.

That reminds me that I have to buy some film and get going with taking some more pictures, so at least I'll have them as stock, some friends pics, and all that to keep with me foreverrrr! Pics - ugh. Adrian has picnapped 4 of my baby pictures. Half are ok, but the others suck dangit. This is usually not good. Haha.

Def Leppard - Breathe a sigh. Another good one.

Oh sleep! I had more to say, but I can't think anymore. The music is just kinda filling my brain... Strawberry Fields - The Beatles - ohh yehhhhh!!!! Strawberry fields foreverrr!!! Ok I'll hold back on bursting out into song and dance.

Why can't I ever go to sleep early? Haha I'm a bum. *goes to do some yoga* That's it I'm done here dammit.

Dad felt sorry for me since I was being so whiny and immature, and well umm chocolate deprived. I got a wittle chocoeggy. That's for tomorrow I guess, or even the day after, haha ...rigghht.

I'm supposed to meet Avin tomorrow after work. Fun! I've known him over uhhh 2 years I think or almost 2...and we've never actually met irl. Amazing considering he's in the same damn country. That happened with Stef too though.

Let me go and finish off Dara's e-mail before she kills me! Bon nuit :)

I want Easter eggs dammit. You know what, since no one is going to get for me I'll just go and get myself some happy, pretty little easter egg chocolates..so BLEH. *mumbles something about babies getting stuff and being too old etc* I tell you it's not fair...

Dad has somewhat settled down. Yay. Despite some little snide comments ever so often, he's iced. *shakes head* Sad. These men.

Euhh. There was a alot more that I had planned to say but I've forgotten. Great. Getting rather old. I've been meeting people at work, and totally forgetting their names like 2 seconds after. Apparently they have not made much of an impression. Woopsy *grin* There are no hot guys. :(

Oh right, only today I checked out my guestbook, after a long time. Woops. So I have to e-mail these people, and/or visit their sites and leave a message. Rav also reminded me of the updating I have to do. Mmm err yeh all in time :) I've basically been liming after work almost every day, so I've just been ead tired and barely on my computer long enough to do any real work. Yes..excuses.

*sleep*

My dear sweet father has been driving mom insane. Maybe all of this too is because he's gotten back the flu. Poor guy..but still, no reason to annoy people. It's stressful yes, but hello. This afternoon, I go outside to put a bowl in the sink, so he goes "wash those wares". I look at the wares he left in there, and walk off (intending to come back to wash them anyway), saying "yeh I'm coming", though I was just about close to yelling at him. Uh he's not frickin handicapped.

I'm so tired. Dara's suppose to be here in like half an hour, and I'm pooped. I'll try to stay till she gets on though. The net is totally screwing up all my chats currently, so blogging is passing the time nicely, if only my fingers stop being so weary.

I got so sour this morning, because of mom tellingme how upset she was about dad, that I just refused to go out with her. She went shopping for my work clothes. Lol. So I've gotten enough stuff to last me. Unfortunately I couldn't lime for the rest of the day, so I slept in the awful heat.

Tomorrow. Another day home? Blah. Beach I need. We want to duck going to Balandra this Easter. *snicker* I like my amenities and bed thank you very much, and even though thismay be one of the last fe times I'll be getting to go to the beach to soak in some rays(bad UV), I just can't but feel tired of the whole thing. There'll be no computer, no e-mail, no friends. Nada. :-/ My cousin who has been going with us is going Toco or something to surf! Oh the bastard! No fair I say!

I listened to Mirrorball today. I was too lazy to take the CD out of the player, and then the music on the radio got annoying, so I clicked the next best thing. It ended up being notsobad after all. I didn't cry or anything. Eyes closing... *pewfers*

Dido is damn cool. So lovey dovey. When will I ever be so mushy again? Apparently I'm afraid of the whole intimacy thing - wonderful Trace, you're really messed up now aren't ya :) Freak.

It was Friday...and I was happy, because it was the end of my first working week (yay!), and I hung out with Adrian, which wasn't so bad at all, except for my dad being a consummate biatch to him, which is so not fair. I could scream, but I wont, I'd rather bottle it all up and save it for my blog.

I reiterate. Men are idiots. No offense to those guys I love and who I call my friends though :) Correction though. Fathers are blithering idiots who don't know when to chill the hell out. I mean it's fine and all that you want to protect your million dollar (by now) investment that you probably can't clone anytime soon, and that you want the best, but there's a point.

Problemo 1 : He wants me to remain focussed.
My theory (and mom's) : HELLO? Modern women multitask. What am I going to do? Shack up with a guy and forget about school? Euuh. Get with it.

Prob 2 : He doesn't like my taste in guys.
My theory : I'm not getting married for godsakes. Chilltf out. Even if I do decide to get married one day he'll have to accept him.

Prob 3 : We're moving "fast"
My theory : So? I'm not entirely stupid you know. *rolls eyes* Ugh. Men.

Conclusion : ICE.

So it's weekend! My plans have yet to be made, but I'm gonna figure that out..just now or in the morning when I arise. I'm rather tired, although I took a little nap earlier.

I guess I have a lot to say, but I'm afraid. I don't know why. I always stop short of doing things because I'm afraid of taking risks. Adrian mentioned last night, something about risk-taking. I guess it would apply to all areas in your life.

I am now officially single. Hm doesn't feel that different I guess...maybe it will sink in sometime later on. Maybe...if it hasn't already. Maybe it took 4 months. When you slowly realise that you no longer have a relationship, well it sucks to let go, and maybe it was me being the hopeful fool that I am, for holding on for so long. Oh well. The world doesn't stop because of it.

Adia - Sarah McLachlan. All my sentiments or something. *looks @ Mirrorball CD* Euuuhhh dammit it's full of all the songs that well mostly express some of the stuff I feel. Let's move along shall we? I'll try not to be thinking about it. Note - do not listen to this CD until umm...? Hmm I guess it's all about milk. It's spilt, so what? You get another bottle or something.

Pear yogurt mm yum. It's been in the freezer - it's that home made yogurt that's runny, so mom thought it'd be more fun frozen. Decent enough. Speaking of mom. Lol. She's going berserk looking for some container she lent out and can't find it now and doesn't know who has it. See her calling everyone and cussin because no one has seen it. Dad and I are hiding :) Mom and her hissyfits drive us up a wall...we snicker and say - "ooohhh menopause" just to tease her and see how she reacts.

My job is going pretty alright so far. It's been fairly interesting and fun. Staff priveliges rock on!! I've finally got access to the net, so, woohoo *grin* I've learnt this and that, and I guess I will every day. It was a little slow today, thankfully, and I got to come home and sleep. This of course means that I'll be up late again, but oh well.

Tomorrow I want to lime after work (as if I haven't been doing that almost every day this week). A proper lime though, maybe with friends. I could save that for next week though because it might be a bit less hectic as well so better yet. Cinema? Dars? Devy? That's on for next week you two. As for everyone else I've not been seeing, err don't worry we'll catch up. Avin. I have to meet you. Soon. E-mail meee!!!

No more introspective thinking. I'm sick of it. People are so simple, I'm so annoying. Lol. I'll get over it one day.

Day 2 of working. Hmm, well it isn't overly bad or anything. UWI, at least is comfortable, with my aunt being downstairs, friends around (who I haven't hung out with yet), and just convenient in location. Perfect job? For me being the lazy bastard I am yes, and tiring hahaha. It's a good transition...lucky me 4 hours. Haha. I will be updating later I suppose. I need sleep again.

This place is awfully hot. My job started today and thank God for air condition. Yes I started working so stop gasping and sputtering in shock. Half day work - not bad at all and a decent enough salary. Here's to the end of bumming all day. *sniff* I shall miss it. Farewell getting up late, adieu messy appearance. *sigh* Gone are the days. The crappiest thing is not being able to lime when I want now...well only after lunch. Dangit. Ok it isn't tooo bad, but *sniff* Ok ok I'll behave. I'm getting paid!

I am a consummate bastard...and so are my friends apparently. I wish I could say more here, but I shan't, in case I get into trouble. Hm. That's always bad isn't it? Uhh. Yeh *angelic grin* Stac. Dars. I love you two. Ask me about this later ladies. Oh and as for our planned girls lime. I still don't know. West Mall is it? Stacey T. suggested such. Stac is leaving for Martinique shortly after her school goes on break, and as for Dars, ? Blah. I need to lime before I leave here.

Oh I finally saw, The Next best Thing today! Aww it was so sweet. I was too sleepy to watch Who Framed Roger Rabbit though. I can barely remember that movie, but I know we went to the cinema to see it. Long long time ago. I was itsy bitsy then. Time flies especially when you're having fun.

I awoke this morning to mom ranting about men and their stupidity. lol. Funneee. I think my dad is still living in the 70's or something, but I can't blame him, he tries his best, but boy oh boy...is it a capricorn/Chan thing? Well mom and I figure so. It all stems from the mother-son relationship.

I had a nice long talk with mom about guys and all of that fun girl stuff. Girls soften up everyone, bring warmth to a family, while a family sans girls turn out cold and funny, like dad and his brothers. Not that they're horrible, but they don't know a thing about girls. So sad.

Basically, let's see. I admire good mother-son relationships. That usually wins. Last night I wasn't so lost for words as I am right now. Great. Just at the time I thought I was going to pour out my soul into this entry I'm blank. Blankity blank.

Today is what? Hmm. Just a few minutes ago it was Saturday. *rolls eyes* Another day gone, but not wasted. Thankfully. Actually it was pretty nice, spent some time with a friend and met his cool mom. Their relationship is so sweet, really rare actually. Mother-son relationships are sometimes weird and icky. Looking at my cousins who are mostly boys, friends, parents, I notice it over time.

Err *pauses* I'll continue this later. My brain is sending these messages to me : HELLO idiot...body tired go to sleep. I think I'll do just that. My day has been tiring...again. Yes. :p That's what you get for limin hard. Hahaha.