When you think no one's watching, or no one cares, you can always be assured that there is. Eventually you may or may not find out.
Scary shit.

Excuse me while boredom pierces my skull and drains my energy out, while I melt in this furnace under a flaming hot shingle roofed house. Air condition? Please?
Good conversation? I need.
Good company imminent - but alas they won't stay long. :(

I guess I should make my bed and take a bath and smell like pretty things.

Does a swam smell pretty? Anyway. Am a Swan in bed. Lol.
Very committed, you know how to treat your partner well. You look after their best interests and have complete respect for them. Easy going, you like to be sociable but enjoy your partner's company. You're at your happiest when tucked up in bed with your loved one. You prefer sensual, sexy love making rather than a quick romp, that's the only way to find true pleasure and reach sexual nirvana!

Hmmm lord..another test...courtesy d mix breed.

Find your emotion!

You are 40% evil! [?]

You're more good than evil, but not by much. You've drank straight from the carton of milk in the refrigerator, and maybe kicked the neighbor's cat, but you're still good. Kinda.

Hahahaha!

Men are serious wastes of time. This is not only the conclusion I have made since last night's meeting (no not project thingy - which needs work tooo lol), but on the whole.
Big lumps of nothing. Nada en absoluto se muevas en las cabezas!
Ok ok, not ALL of you ok gee. Allyuh who does read his labby stef jus etc you know I love you and respect you and you're not wastes of time...generally. *muah*
As I was saying though, the rest of em suck donkey's nuts. I tired today I really did...did not work Today was v bad phone day.

Shall I call it tomorrow? I that bored...was supposed to tday. Not like I didn't try. Guess you gotta work for what you want...not sure I do want it of course. Could be freak...or something. Not that like it's a very bad thing...but. Ah well. Bitch doesn't wanna call cuz of stupid reason. Pft. Lamer. GUess should have been specific and say hey call @ 8. *rolls eyes and makes W sign with fingers*

I watched like the last half hour of Bridget earlier today - oops missed it @ 10 tonight. Damn. Finally Spoke to Stac so she's alive and well. This is good!

Another quote of the day from the girl whose ass is not hurting from sitting down for 5 hours.

Dara: am bad to the bone
Dara: either that
Dara: or am mutating..

Yes folks. It gets better day by day.

*half mood* Ugh am home bored to death on Saturday night!!! Lameness supremis!!!!!!

Sleep necessary. Finals early tomorrow!!! Germany? Brasil? Who will it be? Am glad Turkey won against S.K. - and it was a good game too. Crap - saw the highlights and goals...most important part.

It's been a while since I've done this - my daily rack up of crap.

# guys (possible fling potentials ) called : 1
# times called : 5
# times gotten through and spoken : 0
# calls from potentials : 0 (idiot)
# times annoyed by stupid people : gazillions
# times said bored : 1000
# times went out : 0

Overall : shittyass day

*grin*

Pips on.

Muhhahahahaaha.

*wields power*

So after a 7 hour or so meeting last night, I realised something. Men can't get anything done. Good Lord. What torture.

Ria sent me a joke thing, which I'm sure you got already, and at the end, it says this :

But the most compelling evidence of all - 3 proofs that Jesus was a woman:
1. He had to feed a crowd at a moment's notice when there was no food
2. He kept trying to get a message across to a bunch of men who just didn't get it
3. Even when he was dead, He had to get up because there was more work for Him to do

Indeed.
Yesterday evening was fun though. Many many fun. The meeting. Well. Blah.

Guess I should sleep huh? Go to gym early and get on with stuff. Uh huh. I so should.

Lol @ this. Quote from one if Darsy's blog finds.
American : "Apparently there is some sort of important soccer tournament happening in Korea right now, judging by the fact that two international students in my office (Bennie and Tomo from South Africa and Japan, respectively) were frantically searching for a diner with cable television at 2:00 am."

So I went for this interview with this company ( which shall remain unnamed). $1800 (pre tax) for 3 months , 8am - 4:30 pm, no overtime, no holidays. Lol. I'd do it if I was getting paid my worth.
*sigh*
So we move along.

This is oh so cool. Try it! At night with the lights out and speaker up loud.

Room is neater.
Am aching like the dickens. First week. Ahhh feels good.

Bah can't blog properly yet. Too many things to do.
So, I have a couple meetings planned soon. Tomorrow and next Monday. Woo woo.

"Ria: all these weirdos......we have to get new men
Stacey: new blood...call for new blood
Stacey: dunno where to find em though
Ria: well we'll soon
Trace: ennnnt
Trace: lol
Trace: where ARE they?!!
Stacey: they hiding
Trace: :(
Stacey: so someone told me recently
Ria: allyuh think they in the beetham?"

Now that ladies and gents was the quote of the day.

Indeed. That just made my day. Rofl.

Gah pfolio not up yet. Am too much a perfectionist for own good you know.

Werd.
Busy day.

Busy week expected! Wonderful.
Need to finish off work now.

*tears self away from forums*

*grumbles about match*

Soo Turkey Brazil tomorrow. Lordee.

Stac. Agh have not written yet. Eek she willkill moi. Why am I feeling sleepy when supposed to be energized?

*depressed*

Thanks Rich for the warning. The Caribbean E-Business magazine with animation festival info is finally out with our pics. Ugh @ me. I am shuddering really. Yuckity yuck.

Got to gym! Yay! Hard luck for me, there was 0 electricity in the whole building. Ugh!

Does cucumber make you burp? Just asking.

Ok this definitely is ridiculous. Am so not calling Kodak. It's a sign the 2 times I've tried calling all came up blank. Am not calling cell. My mother is already wanting me out of the house so it can be neat. (Why does she walk in here anyway?)

*awake*
Ello world.

Am v. stupid girl indeed to think Kodak has slight attraction to me. *thwacks self on forehead* Idiot.
So I thought about it last night as I was trying to get to sleep. The whole to call or not to call. Oh I did call last night actually prompted on by Hackett. Gah. Thank God he wasn't home. A chic answered anyway. (Houston?)
So I thought about how he treated me. I then remembered that Friday he asked me again what my name was at the start. Ick. I suppose I would do something like that, but still. Ick. Yes I'm looking at the little things. They count. They help us to overanalyse things - just what we girls do best. Fun huh?

Haven't heard from ex in eons. He surely got what he wanted didn't he? Right right. Can't help but feel weird I suppose. *whatever* Something else to forget about I guess.

Ah I see Dars finally blogged. Am not allowed to post link yet till she gets her sorry ass up here for me to finish her template. She knows I love her still hehe.
Your interview will be fine. Plagueing but fine. Ah we all have to go through some bulshit or the other like this at some point.

Stace has not blogged. Girl stop gawking over that hottie's ass. Heh. Our hair smells (to quote Arts) like "pretty things". We've been tryng out Palmolive Botanicals hampoo and Conditioner. Hummm.

Stac ok ok let me send mail. You're sounding way miserable. (Isn't everyone?)

Stef may have found a temporary? alternative to the now withered Audio Galaxy. I'll have to try that some time soon.
Rufy is...as always. His writing still rocketh oneth.
Russell is in Canada now. Hmph so not even around to jib with...well at this hour anyway. *sigh*

We're miserable folk these days it seems.
Lab is sour too. Hmm. What the hell is it with everyone?
Maybe the only happy one is Justin. Lol. Apparently he's been expecting sms messages and hasn't been getting any, so he thinks the "roaming" is causing his incomng message thing. Oh the poor dear. I feel like messaging him right now just for that. Wake up bitch. :)

Fuck you connection. I so hate you. Stop being so slow. It's like a frigging snail trying to get over gravel for godsakes. Arrrgghh!

There is a full moon (Brandy song plays in background). Last night I really wondered why it was so bright in my room after I turned off the lights (turn off da light turn off da light!), then realised I scoped the moon on my way home last night. Purty indeed.

Which reminds me. *turns on the radio* Ohhh Shael my boy is on.

"Every once in a while a guy like his woman to cook and clean for him" *bursts out laughing hysterically*
Allyuh know my take on this shit.

As Stef says - Jesus fatass!!! - an Indian version of J-Lo - Waiting for tonight. This is what you get sometimes on Masala. Interesting indeed. Eek.
Ok so I prefer the other world music...a few cool Indian songs.
If no one has heard Aliz�e - Moi Lolita - listen. It's groovy. Very groovy indeed.

Shit I need to have breakfast, get to gym. Yes I start back today. Reason I'm up early. Don't die of shock.

So, finally I can say that I have seen Spider-Man. Yeh I know it took me long enough. I also finally saw A Beautiful Mind and well an additional The Musketeer (with Spidey).
My little take on them are as follows :

Spidey
Graphics - absofckinlutely amazing.
Storyline - complete shit
Music - good
Mary Jane is not a slut. She did what any girl would do. She is all of us Justin Gosine.
Overall - Cool entertainment

The Musketeer
Storyline - ok considering it was based on The 3 Musketeers.
Fight scenes - Jet Li meets Alexandre Dumas (wtf?!)
FX - uhm ?
Background setting - Beautiful
Star - cute
Staress - st00pid
Music - it had?
Overall - lame

A Beautiful Mind
Kickass!!!!
Music - Excelente! I want that soundtrack!
Storyline - woooo!
Cinematography - groovy
FX - not bad
Overall - beautiful - rock on! Crowe is having very sexy voice.

Ugghhh I had like part of a post here when I was a little more coherent than I currently am. Ah well. Quite a bit has been going on and I don't know if I'm at liberty to talk about it...or something. I feel weird.

I miss Arthur, but I guess that's beside the point. Hmph.

Turkey won their match thank God. If they didn't they would have certainly been shot by that coach. I mean after all they had possession most of the time, but missed so many fucking goals it's not funny. Finally the cutie Ilhan scored the golden goal WOOOHOO!

*sigh* @ Spain. Dammit. Did not see the match and don't want too. V depressed about it.

Revlon Colorstay Lipshine isn't bad at all.

Thinking about calling Kodak (new nick for photo guy). Hope he never sees this. Hopefully won't because he isn't online much. Yay? So, I guess I should relay the story?
Thursday: Photo studio recommended by mom because the guys were cute and the pictures come out good. Gone there, see the guys. Main dude is little short, but cutesy. Getting ready for pic, he's real nice and helpful etc. Thought he was just tryng to make me feel comfortable. Left there, he said to be back the next day.

Friday : Gone back to collect stuff. Not ready, he says give me 1/2 hr. So I waste some time, go back, it's not done yet...properly and we stand there discussing what to do. Not sure if he's prolonging the thing. Being v nice. Starts up talk talk talk. Long and short - we exchange #'s. Right. Cute smile. So he's 30. Not a problem for me of course.

There are questions waiting to be answered yet, and when those are answered I will know how to play it from there. If is ho will have non committal thingy date thing whatever will not have problem with such. If serious and mushy - houston problem alert.

That's part of mah story. The wittle rundown hehe.
Call him? Doh call him? I actually have an excuse because I forgot to do something else so many just have to go back. Hah!

I'll blog soon soon...hehehe. Stuff's goin on. ;)

Nutshell : picked up cutey photographer dude so very fast not funny. Weird. May actually have to talk to him on phone not online. Werd.

Stac! Need lime!

Dammit. Senegal-Turkey and Spain-Korea next. Oh man oh man.

Oop off to watch replay!

Brasil!!!! Deutscheland! Whee!

OH holy... look @ the time. Gosh...dammit.

*mumble mumble*

Guees I'm still depressed or something. So many things to do, so little time. Humbug.

Uhm. I got some sleep.
It's hot.

Why don't my happy times last for just a tad longer? This is totally depressing. I'm at the end of rope and hanging on by a thread of hair. I need sleep, and when I try I just can't. My eyes are burning and my whole body is feeling messed up. I'm thinking if I go to the gym this wouldn't happen, but, dammit. I'll have that end of cake and that scrumptious ice-cream now. :-/ I'm poor as poor can be. Holy shit. Time to bite the bullet and get a real job, be exploited for the raw talent that I have? Uggggggghhhhh. More depression.

Shoot me now.

2 hour naps. That's what I've been getting. Good grief!!!

Happy Anniversary to my parents. I don't know how after over 24 years they're still kicking. Like wow.

Bahahahahahaaa @ Italy. Am actually glad S/Korea won. That last goal rocked. I saw it. Muhahahahahaa. Good game good game, though I missed most of it. :)

Am so tired. *sniff*

Dyin...

Mood again. I suppose I should sleep.

Urgh....!

Yet another Saturday night/Sunday morning spent @ lan partay. Guh-reat Trace, what does this say about your social life? *sigh* At least the girls were there, plus a few more from GATT itself, so that was pleasant. Got in some pool and DOA, but man...not a compy touched. Shoulda carried mine... next time for sure. Or something.

Met a few new people, some scary as hell, some very cool indeed.
Sleepy.

This place is so very hot...ugh...can't sleep properly yet.

Heh.
*big grin*
Dammit can't blog exactly what am thinking. Dammit to hell. Damn you public blog.

Am chipper.

Sleepy.
As usual.

Gosh Shivs made me join his Masala forum. More addiction.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STACY-MARIE!!!!!

Ok so, like, after 3 am, I watched Monsters Inc. *ducks* Watched download triumphantly finish @ 5:30 am. I was resting my eyes for what an hour?
Am up, the rain is pouring, and I need to get out of here and go get pictures done and drop off some business cards for my old art teach. Looky that. Storm thing. Am not moving. Heh. Looks like sleep time. Muhahaha.

Talk about inspiration.

"When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on." ~ Franklin D. Roosevelt

I feel like my bed is alien territory and it actually is rejecting me for some reason. Maybe it's that stupid sheet and that dumb hard pillow - well 4... ok 2 hard pillows...2 soft ones..ok maybe my bed is just too crowded with pillows.

So I've got some e-mail to send out. Still. Cards to do, and drop off to..day, Darsy's site to finish, my site to set up , cussin of people and sleep to be had. Wonderful. Whole body aching. Considering I made it only once to the gym this week, to..day, would have been a nice day to go. I'll see how it goes though. If I ever wake up.

I miss my blog. I have so so much to say. Dammit. And to certain folks. I am thinking about you.

I just spent 20 minutes doing this stupid get-to-know you thing which no one will reply to. Ah well. No matter. I am actually looking @ my download, which, if stops, will not resume, which will piss me off considerably. I need this thing badly, so don't screw up mister download. 4 frigging hours again. This is not good. Let's hope can get up @ 6:30 to disconnect before mother destroys connection. Must write note and stick on fridge.

Hahah 3 am. Guh-reat!!! Now I'm looking @ cd media. Hahaha. Getting delirious. Joy.
Wonder if this will post amidst stinky bandwidth...getting sucked up by download.

Oh this is definitely funny. Geeky, but funny. The shit we talk...that is logged...

Finally had meeting with the boys about the project. So many things to do still, but we'll get it done. I'm anticipating many a sleepless night in the future. We plan to have a huge bash after we finish. Ah the end...I see the light...not. Yet.

SLEEPY. Goddamn.

Shucks have much to log just can't right now. Must sleep before death creeps up.

Argh no Argentina? Lol. Man. That sucks.

Spain kinda strong... England..of course...very. Hm. Need to get up and actually watch matches...

Awake...since after 10. Ugh.
Needing to go...now...do stuff.

Now gonna try...

Still not sleeping...

Soooo.
Uhm.
Sorta sleepy now. Not very productive. These damn people...yes you Jase have me damn well addicted to the forums. Dammit. And DOA.
Hah. Am so bad. Need to do more important life stuff you know. *sigh* Priorities Trace. Must send e-mail resume thingy to company and send resume period to other company looking for layout designer (or whatever). Mother still down throat to get life together and get job. Joy. Yes I know I know. Ugh...gonna work for shit money soon I suppose, and exploit myself and my talent. :(

Now no one's awake. Great. Cept Jase who just won't sleep. V. disturbing indeed. Guess will sleep now. Many things to do.

But I have a tan. :(

Yay!!! Finally made it to the gym!! Wheee! Know will ache for next week. Oh man. But it's good to be back oh yes it is!

Sleep is calling. I'm not sure what I should do next on my list. There's alotta stuff, but I think I'll relax a bit more and just do some more designs for the new site I'm planning to put up. My business needs to get going gah! Should finish off passport stuff at least this week...hmph.
Should try to make it south before weekend to see Stac - her birthday is Saturday. It's the last crunch before exams finish for her and it's on, so she's in my thoughts. Need to get stuff from Chris, and all that.

MSN is doing not-so-nice things.

Mr Jobity!!!! Lol @ The Asian...Gee thanks man. Good God! Satan's console is actually kinda sexy minus the controller...well ok am in love with Hayate. Dammit. Anywaaaayyy.

"Trace is a sweetheart. She is scarily intelligent, she's a geek (though she will not admit it), and she has a very strong work ethic, given the work she does for GATT.
Physically? Very easy on the nostrils (girl smells really good), and also easy on the eyes. From what I saw, she would look really good all dolled up in formal finery. Heh. Pretty gal. Short, though. :("

Lol...bwtf...short! Lol he noticed the hells. Bah! Hahaha. Yeh I know I smell good. Lol @ formal finery....wuz that? Like..a dress? Pft!
Lol.

Dead dead tired.
I mean dead tired.

Fingers still hurt from yucky X-Box controller, but it was good I say very good. Thumb hurt worth it ehhee. Omg...am getting gamerised! I played pool (won twice woo woo) until beaten by chic who said she could not play and can..very well. Goodness. Had interesting opportunity of attempting to teach a boy how to play pool...but eventually ended up letting him get raped by aforementioned girl... poor him... stopped playing, but after a while, so this is good.

So I graduated from my class this evening, finally, and came home again with the prize for the top of my class. Yay! I happened to meet up with this guy who I had met last year through a friend, so I gotta hook up with hima nd go see his new place. He's doing graphic design too and stuff....seems settled -well now starting anyway. That's good. Very sexy jersey too. Hmm.

What else did I have to say? Certain there was something...but just..not in mood...or whatever. Damn you GATT forums and Rich and Guru. Dammit!

Am currently uin lan party. The girls went home a while ago, and sitting here next to Rich who is attempting to play SOF... *snicker*. I have stopped considering I suck at this stuff. :(
Am sleepyish, wondering how on earth am gonna be awake (enough) for the presentation this evening.
Fun.
MSN won't sign in here as net v v slow. Ick.

Our sweat was a huge success...over 40 folks! Wonderful!

Sleep? No one to play pool with *sniff*.

FINALLY! It is done! Now off to class/exam. Joy. Not exactly sure how am managing through this day. Many coffees needed.

So didn't know that boy checked these things. *gulp* *scowl*

Humungous headache. Gah. Tired. Eyes burning. Was out this morning and yet to recover.

Stace and I were trying to teach Dars how to scope. Did not work. She's failing course. Not good. Is doomed for life. *grin* Is gonna kill me for such.
Ah the fine art of male scoping was witness by one male of species...poor Avin...or lucky Avin. Sitting with 3 hot femmes is no easy task.
Am looking like Vennie agh agh!
Managed to catch attention of person now known as swamp thing who it playable wittable with head. Stace - must inform. Evil plans? Moi? Nevah.
Managed to meet up with Dev (I did not expect this? Hmm).
Lol@Dev though. Lol alot.

Shoulders neck head hurt hurt hurt. Drugs necessary if must continue with work.

Stac you will write again.
Jus. Hm. *gag*
Rich! I want my ass famous too.. pft how come no one famous never link me huh? Well I guess you count now ay. Hmph!

Stace and I are good girls. Dammit. No wonder we're single. Hah!

Sleepy. Suckish day.
Watched MTV Movie Awards - oh joy. *grin @ Ben Affleck, Paul Walker, Orlando Bloom, Vin Diesel, Will Smith, Ewan McGregor etc*

*frown* Shoulders peeling from sunburn. Yuck.

Wish your gran well soon dears. They know who they are.

Thank you Nigel. Corrected indeed.

*grunt*
Was writing stuff, but not feeling to bare soul to world today. Was going through other people's blogs. Lord - talk about issues you guys have too. Hehe. It's all good though, without your issues to read I'd be bored. Kinda.
As I type this I have much work to do (as usual).
Am very proud of self for scoring GATT this new lan party place, but verbal phone skill mostly. Go me! The guy is really cool too so that's like 75% of the problem done away with... heck 90%.

Jay Hernandez I realised today, watching Crazy/Beautiful is very goddamn hot. Geezus Christ. Hellooooo baby! *wilt* In any picture this boy looks hot.... whoa.

Ladies. You MUST check this out. Wowowowow. *grin ^10* Eyeful I say...lordeelord.
Men please do not - you will be disappointed and curse. Think of this as a warning. :)

*sigh*
Oh... wow. What I'd give to be in a roomful of straight guys looking like this. I really wonder if God is playing tricks with my head...how can anyone be so gorgeous? Mannn oh man. Hope they're not gay.

Ok so that was the edited posted...posted...just now...hmm.
Am also addicted to Trading Spaces. Did I mention that? Ok. Well I am.

Sleep.

Ah Darsy cut her hair. Haven't seen it yet, but I'm certain it doesn't look bad at all...better than ok. I think mine needs cutting or something. A real manicure...wow...I figure one day I will get one of those, but for now I do my own nails.

Good gracious McKain keep writing like that and you'll be a prize-winning author very very soon.

My mommy took me for one of those Vennie students yesterday cuz I looked all pale...damn. So I thought I'd gotten a tan the other day at the beach. *sigh* (Oh now I know why some of those vennies look at me funny at times). Interesante.

Bored and tired. Didn't get much sleep last night because I kept thinking, about stuff, certain people, and things. Grr. Ottmar Liebert filled in that soundtrack of life music pretty well.

Daily tally :

# thoughts about ex and all of that : 100+ (hence sleep required)
# calories consumed : 10 gajillion
# hrs worked : 4 (chatting in between)
# hrs vegetated : 20
# times pissed off : 1

And it's already tomorrow...today. Ugh.

Stephen's stopped talking to me now. What's new? "I shall never be like you all" Righto.
Apparently I'm too influenced by foreign culture to make use of my own brain. *strokes Clairol Herbal Essences washed hair* Sooooo...basicallllyyy, uhm...ok.
This all came about because I was misinterpreted, I said such and he was miffed. Hmm. Ok. I'm such a bastard who can't change her life for the better fast enough and can't understand people who think they're not a part of the human race. Sumthin so. Hopefuly he'll read my blogs still.

"Your so vain I bet you think this song is about you...don't you?"

"Boldness has genius, power and magic. Engage, and the mind grows heated. Begin, and the work will be completed." ~ Goethe

Many a thing to do today. La la la. So how do I toss around gym (2hrs), work to be completed (3 hrs), places to go and things to be done (4hrs), sleep to be caught up on (3hrs), research to be done for work to be completed (2 - 3 hrs), project to do (3 hrs). Egads.
On the side, which may or may not be so important - the call (1/2 hr max I give it...or 10 minutes...whatever happens...happens...but maybe not today? I know not. Still confused.)

This one's with Marc in mind.

Friedrich Nietzsche, (1844-1900) talking about his inspiration for Thus Spake Zarathustra: "When my creative energy flowed most freely, my muscular activity was always the greatest. The body is inspired: Let us leave the "soul" out of consideration. I might often have been dancing; I used to walk through the hills for seven or eight hours without hint of fatigue. I slept well, laughed a good deal--I was perfectly vigorous and patient."

Eh bien Stephen is in good mood again and keeps reading my blog even when is ignoring me. Apparently people do that still. Very good. Good good Steph. Am v. glad.

He keeps counselling, but has so many issues of his own, is v funny indeed. *wry grin and shake of head* I know better (and then some) of these LIbra bitches of course. Shame they're so annoying else I would be very attracted to such.

The other one who continues to be enormously sexy is so far away, is not tangible for such flirtation. My goodness. Dammit. Damn you for being 10000 miles away.

I have many a new Ottmar Liebert song...piece...whatever. Ahhhh. :)

So I should sleep.

My my my. Another interesting conversation, with someone connected to my ex. Interesting indeed. Sooo my boy is drinking. I seriously hate misunderstandings but as Stef said, it's not my fault. It's such a long story...lord. I think I have to call him...and I'm scared...so when I gather enough energy and guts, I will.

This always happens of course, just when I'm settling down, something always comes up to just fuck it over. What is this about? Is this again some kind of sick joke that God is trying to play on me. Stop it!!! I don't need emotional shit again. You know I don't. Dammit. Let me stay neutral just for a little while longer...

In others news, today was awful...god.. I hate umbrellas. Was generally soaked despite pretty umbrella. Note : Umbrellas don't shield blowing rain from wetting clingy jeans and feet in sandals of course are inundated while trying to cross rivers in the notwelldrained streets. They also aren't really easy to hold, especially when less than light, blowing with wind, and when you're holding a very uncomfortable stupid plastic bag, trying to prevent a roll of expensive paper from getting wet (which did).

So I spent money (that was for other stuff which did not have to pay for immediately), and bought some paper and stuff for my final project for class. Damn expensive things. So they rolled it up and put it in this bag, and it didn't stay in properly, so the top got wet in the rain...much to my pissiness.

My feet aching from walking too much wasn't much comfort while being uncomfortable, hot (was sweating desoite the rain), and having my clothes damp and sticking to me. The only good thing was the fact that I scoped some seriously hot guys. Goddamn.

Other next suckass thing about today - I missed the Italy and Brazil matches. Dammit!

Daily tally :
# times things in lame stupid bag almost spilled out in town : millions
# times hit people with umbrella : less than 10 I swear
# times thought about dropping umbrella somewhere : 2
# times feet got soaking wet in great sea of water in port of spain streets : 4
# hot guys seen : many
# matches with hot guys missed : 2 - 3
amt money that does not belong to me spent : $80 - $100 - bank is getting squished to pay back
# calories sucked up : 2 million and 1 (walked off the fruta)
# times wanted to cry : 3
# times cried : 1
# times emotionally fucked over : 1
# times complimented on smelling really good : 1
# times gotten free taxi ride for smelling great : 1 (yay - even though was ugly dude who talked too much)
# times pissed off by person (will not call names) who is showing off about JUST having good sex : 1

Dear Lord...it's a sad day with 10 more minutes to go. Let tomorrow be better? Please?

"I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life, I'm walking away, oh to find a better day"

Well looky that..just arose...humm. It's rainy as heck, so I don't know, but I figure I'll get rid of all the other little things I need to do, then head to the gym.
*sigh*
Was supposed to be in town. Oh well. Can get all the town st uff done in one day, providing I wake up. Sheesh.

*still thinking about movements tomorrow* My brain is going at mach speed right now. So many things to do, this week, tomorrow! Agh! Agh!

Had great convo with this guy today who works in the art/entertainment/music industry. Wealth of knowledge man. Very very interesting.
Apparently my work is better than many of the industry's artists (I sorta knew this, but today was more confirmation of such), and my only problem now is marketing, and a few other things. I have so much research to do right now it's not funny. Lots to do and improve as always. Guess I'm sorta excited about it.

Much to do. Cannot blog much. Sleepy as well.
Gym in the am. Man oh man, let's hope I don't die. I can probably catch the entire Italy - whoever match in the gym. Yay. Italy. Mmm good. *grin*

Bed...ohh...you look so yummy...Brain is slowing down considerably.

Trace shall not work for free anymore.

Stef's back (yay!), but in bad mood (nooo :( *sniff*)
Aren't we all in moods.
Stace and her new layout rocketh oneth. We spoketh of footballers' hot legs (and bodies). *slips into little dreamland*

Bored to death. Should do my work. *sigh* After class today though I am exhausted, and irritable and tired of everything. Dammit to hell.

Chatting with people who care, but really don't. Very irritating. When I'm wallowing in self pity, please let me, because it's not like I don't try. I am so tired of being the one to initiate shit. Why can't someone else do the work for once? Tired tired tired.
How come no one calls me to go out? Well it is a very rare occasion indeed when that blue moon rises. It's not like people don't know I need to get out of the house. Oh no. They know alright, but...I'm not their friends. Oh no. I live too far. So it's not very convenient. Don't really care. While I bend over backwards to do this or that...or to care. Oh nevermind me. Tired of the bullshit. Tired of being walked over. No more no more. Arggghhh I need a vacation. Am tired being organizer and doer. Goddamn. Treat me for once goddamn you.

So I wait (prob forever).
Gone are those days when I get a call saying, let's go do this....let's do that...gone are those adventure days, of trying new things, experiencing new places and things. How I long for them again...those were really nice days. Miss them quite a bit. Miss a lot more...
This dwelling on a past I cannot bring back. Ah well.

Daily tally :
# chats with near intelligent male of species : 5 - 3 fleetingly (dammit ^2 - 3 are amazingly hot, 1 is v hot venezolano (might be gay))
# chats with hot guys : 3 (damn damn)
# chats with idiots : 6 - 10
# times disappointed with this and that: 10 million
# times trying to convince self that self will get on good foot soon : 0 (am doomed forever)
# stupid questions 1 idiot asked : 20 e.g. "Do you like me?" - "Oh no I think you're ugly and inane really"
"Are you a virgin?" - "I think that's very impolite. Salt"
"Are you worth it?" - "Hello?"
"Are you boring?" - "As much as you are? heck no"
Stupidity squared. Really. Stac, Dars, Stace? Help?
# times gawked @ football players body/legs (woo woo) : endless

My aunt commented that men don't like strong women. Hmm. So the trick is to pretend to be weak, while wielding all power. Mmm. Right. So I await opinion from my boys who read this. I'msure I'll get a barrage of - hell no that's so not true. Blah blah. Still await it.

Hm convo with vennie not bad at all. Shame he's back in Venezuela.

Poor Saudi Arabia. *snicker* That was nasty. I only saw up to the 4th goal... damn. Harsh. Nassstttyy. I would have liked to see those other 4 goals just because I'm bad that way. The Germans are cute though. *grin*

*sigh* Morning mostly gone and class coming up. Wunnerful. While I gather some semblance of artistic ...something, I'm listening to some newly downloaded music. Mostly very odd stuff, but listenable. Different. That's what I like.

Sleep. I'm sleeping way too much. Argh.