*fidgets*

Long day ahead. One must sleep as to have energy to watch anime all day long. Arts I will see Hellsing if it kills me.

You know, you can push me around for a while, and that's ok, but when you take advantage of me and be a complete and utter dork, I will fuck you over.
Now that that's been accomplished I can move along and do my work.

I watched Pulp Fiction again this morning while doing my work (finally), after being very distracted by Ry who just HAD to show me a couple of cutesy fellas (gods he knows my type in a way). Good lord. So I analysed each of them. Apparently that's bad, but hey I'm idle. I can't always say, well he's very fuckable. Dammit.
Yes so I still adore that movie. "I'm sorry did I break your concentration?" Right.

*poof*

Once again, having to deal with inadequate idiotic artists. Oh dear Lord help them to be fired. *sigh* The morons fucked up my design and couldn't use their flea brains to do much else than repeat a whole page, leave pages blank and be utterly and incomprehensibly inane. My god. At least the cover looks passable. That's about it. Idiots.

*bounces to Eminem*

I shall speak of such blood-pressure raising idiocies later, when am coherent.

I need a nap sleep badly.

Instead I was up after 2, talking to him who is not well. I am scared really. Looking for him online, hoping he got through the night alright. I need to confirm meetings and such today. Many things to do. Last night I was so panicky - not that I'm not now, but I also have to let it go. I have to live and let live, do what I can and just leave the rest up to God and or the fates...whatever it may be. I should make those calls now.

*takes sip of very strong coffee* Keep me awake today.

*looks sideways at radio* Listening to new stuff. Molotov. Rofl. It's just amusing to hear Spanish rapping. I am wondering if I got the right thing! Well it isn't Genitallica at least. Yes you heard it - Genitallica is an actual latin rap/rock group. One night my cousin and I were fighting sleep in a lanparty and well this came on tv...mother of mercies.

Anyways I need to make calls and such. Still hoping he gets online. If he's sleeping that will be alright.

Oops another one foiled. I'm getting better at this aren't I? Soon I'll be a pro scarer-of-dudes-who-actually-think-am-nice-persona. Wait...on second thought. Nevermind.
*polishes halo to brilliant sheen* *twing!*

*looks at bottle of "moisture rich body lotion"* Hey some of the cream is sticking at the top and not moving. *hits bottle* No go. Yes I am sleepy, idle, frustrated and sleepy.

It's Led Zeppelin now. Wheeee!

No I'm not religious and I don't go to church. Just thought I'd let you know that. I have to re-write my Bio/F.A.Q. some time. plink! Idea.

Jesse Cook is rather cool indeed.

Sleep time as you can tell. Once more I am just tired tired tired. Still awaiting word on jobby job(s). Not good. :( Oh well. C'est la vie hein?
Time to stop thinking. Hell I have so many things still left to do. Must must get done. Must also clear desk for it is becoming cluttered with art stuff again. Markers and pens and paper and books.

Miss certain bastards...coming to think if it about 3 or 4 peoples. Hope to see/talk to them soon.
Going off dreaming to the sounds of Spanish Flamenco.

Mmph.

I WANNA KNOW!!!!! (He knows himself)

Anyways. I am off.

Hullo goodbye.

Have been told that uhm "everyone wants you". Hardee har -and they're too scared of me. Lol. That's a good one really!!! *snort* Lovable innocent sweet lil ole me? *cackle*
Spare me from dumb boys who won't take initiative. I won't shoot you down.. in front your face. (I might here though) Will try my best - really really.

Enough deep 2 am thoughts. My bed is ranting that I'm not sleeping.

Oh and by the way? Local designers - the majority, are fucking idiots. I got SO pissed off yesterday. I saw a flyer made from part of the CD cover I designed. Holy geezus. The fuckers CANNOT design. Oh holy mother - come on, resizing a picture is one of the BASIC fucking things you learn. You can't put light text on a light background you moron!! You have a high res fucking image - USE IT!!!! Don't use those weakass confusing fonts. Puhlease. PERISH IMBECILES!

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I wanna be that hot! (Ay check ou ther boobs - woo) SEE! Vee!!!! Look at what you have meh doing! Lord chile! I supposed to be busy.

So I've had a busy weekend. Been a bit tired and isolated which isn't the greatest thing on the planet. Needing to be around with certain folks and you can't really be.and you have gajillions of things to do, hoping that they'll be alright. Life goes on though.

Man oh man. I probably have a lot to say but I've got to do some stuff, make some calls and organise my day a tad.
Al has been good company of late. Good company's always welcome.

I don't think I'll ever become a mother. I'll probably die out of just worry. It's puppies for me!

What's your sexual appeal?
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Haha! Look at me I'm a ...WHAT? NERDSLUT? What the HELL is that? Geezus Christ. This is lame, though somehow rather... uh... close to uh.. ok wait. No lame. *grin*

What have you done dear? Let's hope you haven't gotten anyone pregnant... *snicker* Haha ALSO, I don't understad how my blog can possibly (*shines halo*) rub off of on you.
RIP Jussy's IBM HD. Poor thing! Bastards like them. Tsk.
Lol @ Jhagroo for some reason or another. Oh right, grammar. Haahaha. Man, I find myself surrounded by morons myself, but not only grammarwise :(
Dars is mia as usual. I miss our talks. *sniffle*
Stace and her strange co-workers. Oh the joy of such. I'm almost at the point of firing mom...

Gods I just want to check my dailies and get to bed, and the net is screwing around... dammit. I'm tired again another high volume work day. All over am I aching.
Tired tired. When bend my head to the side like this :| I hear..craaackkk. Can't be good. Sounds like I'm cracking open nutshells with my neck.
I am homebound! Gack! Ah well...one day this week, one hap happy day I'll get out of this miserable little house and go...see the.. err outside.

So what's the time Mr. Wolf? Sleep time. *poof* Love you guys.

*looks across to Arthur's blog* Yeh babe why don't you take some initiative....might help you to get some faster :P
Have done work. Not enough but it will be done soon enough. Must interrupt conversations and work for sleep however.

Dirk I have finally seen Memento. Hahaha a mindfuck indeed. Great movie! Guy Pearce is undoubtedly hot save for that weird mouth. Way...I was left rather uhm...dumfounded in the end, but that was some cool shit! Woo. Also have accomplished seeing yet another missed Disney soon-to-be-classic, A Bug's Life. Woo hoo! I'm not a movie buff (yet). :(

Apparently I give off the air of "lesbian man-hater". Woo and there I thought "bitch" was cool - this might even be better.

Lol it's just AMAZING, how one little step , one little click or drag of the mouse can achieve such wonderful (or tragic) results. Thank heavens it was a dramatic gorgeous result this time around! Holy shit! Haha I literally said that when it happened. Woo maybe you'll see the results soon enough. Don't think I'm at liberty to show them off :(
I'm sitting here wondering what the hell to do again. I have two more designs, for Saturday, and I'm half scared that the second draft I have isn't going to cut it so I still have 2 designs to do. Eek. I have today to finish it before another set of work starts on Saturday or well Friday night actually.

Yesterday morning I couldn't even get offline because things kept coming up! Yikes! Yes I begged to be busy and I love it! It diverts my attention from the more melancholy aspects of my life. So yay!

CHRIST it's 3 am...*bursts into song*. Sleep time. Hopefully can smash in what I need to do tomorrow. Knowing how life is though, the stuff I've been expecting will probably make an appearance in my inbox in the morning and have me in a scary mad rush for the entire day and I won't get to see my peoples.

*scribbles notes of things to do when I awaken*

I wonder how big my readership has gotten? Seems to keep growing. Huwwo readers.

Ah gone mad people! Art supplies!! Wheeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!
Time to sleep.

"Taking responsibility for your life also means accepting the things you can't change. If you're short and want to be tall, or if you were born with some impediment or acquired one along the way, or if you find yourself in any particular set of circumstances that are absolute, immutable, and irreversible, then you basically have two options.
You can rant and rave and curse and indulge in remorse or guilt or self-pity. Or you can go with the hand you were dealt and play the game the best you can.
You can be open to the possibility that those who say we have chosen our circumstances are correct, and then set about figuring out what you can learn from your life by making the most of it.
Going within to find the meaning of our lives does not mean seeking to avoid the challenges our circumstances present. Rather it means finding the grace to learn how to live our lives to the fullest extent possible-whatever that is for us -and, in the acceptance, to move on to the highest level of growth we can." - Taken from random web page - short but sweet.

This is so bloody true. Time to stop sticking people. Over the past couple weeks I've gotten some kind of awakening. Indeed goodness. This is definitely a time to savour life. I have been giving pep talks and counselling to a couple people. Who would ever think I could POSSIBLY get depressed at the rate I'm going. Geezus. I so need me. Hehehe.
It is a tedious long-winded sort of thing but I really don't mind when it's people I care about. Wasn't I...just depressed? I suppose it goes to show you're never alone, and there's always someone worse off that you are. I can't afford to be depressed at these times - I cannot be because they need me. I'll be there.

*feels hair* ooohh softy.
*does little dance* Interview was alright after all. Very interesting and cool - for an interview. I dig that. Would definitely not mind working there. At all! Reserving extra comment for now though!

I am really really tired. Ended up hanging with mom in town looking at stuff and doing some curtain shopping. Honestly I just want a gorgeous metallic slate blue/silvery window blind. *sigh* Too expensive here.

Will reserve all comments about the interview today for later when I get home. I have to wake up early, though I slept earlier. I am praying that my feet last out in those shoes. *crosses fingers* I seriously need a pair of sneakers when I acquire some dinero. Wait...you can't go to interviews in sneakers can you? How salt. I am hating this corporate world thing. I'm going to run my own bigass corporation one day where people can wear whatever they want to work, because you know what, it'll only be artists I'm hiring.

Have had cause to research suicide. No it's not for me you idiots. *sigh* This is hitting way too close to home and it's scary as heck. I don't want to lose anyone close.

After all that rambling for a while, I suppose I owe you, my dearest reading public some sort of coherent, if not informative, thrilling, dramatic type of post. At this point however, my eyes seem to be closing. Tragedy. So what's new you ask?

I've managed to keep sane through some newish friends of mine who are just the sweetest. Hung out with them today. Got to finally see Dom's short films - well I'd seen one already and she kicks ass. We busted out of the cine pretty early after that and mosied on across to the savannah to play the fool...Ry rolling on grasss and running down joggers. Riiight. Then drove around met more people, got to the new net caf� and chilled a while. Met a couple new folkses and got home. Pooped.
I vegged out in front the tv long enough for Harry Potter to start. That was such a cool movie man!! Can't wait to see Chamber of Secrets which I saw from Stef is cool.

Have scoped cutie in aforementioned travels. Prolly is way...way ...wayy too young but is pretty. Pretty golden colour too. Aww. Agh what is it with me?! It's a sad sad day. I want to see that hot dude again I saw at the surfing thing. Where have I seen him before, and is he the same dude I had/have crush on from 2 years ago? Hmm? Is it? Is it? Ah well. Must not be so chickenlike.

Game of Love is a cool song and is the prettiest I've heard for a while. I'm not usually a Michelle Branch type, but I suppose Santana makes the world a peachier place. Bittersweet memories. I took a look at my "lovescope" just now and laughed. Part of it says "It's rare to find a lover who reads your mind, does all the right things, then obediently goes home." *cackle* Oh I guess that's me huh? Hah. I'm a weirdo. I keep thinking that but I'm not sure if I'd ever go through with it. Gawd me being nice is painfully annoying.

Ahh!! The White Stripes! Still sleepy.

Am huggable. Oh yay.

Off to organise for the day. Laters gaters.

Bend from the knees boy!!!! Make this a lesson guys. When lifting computers etc...please bend knees ok? Tsk. Good grief. Feel better dear.

Day's conclusions :
Am exhausted.
Sun v v hot today.
Crispy M&M's are good.
Am not hot. :(
Shall probably be home sleeping tonight, and or doing some much needed site/self promo work.

*mumble*
Bloggy mood not happening.
Friday! Yay! Free! Sorta.

'Tis done. *throws confetti in mind for cannot expend any more energy*
Yay!
I'm sleeping don't wake me. Unable to check voice messages on cell right now unfortunately so call home leave message else mom will wake me up. Maybe not today though! Hah! We're all extremely exhausted and will never do this again unless being very well paid :P

Rav and I have spoken. See? Am being good.

Tonight/today it's my shoulders and back aching. *sigh* Hoping it will end very very soon.
My head is aching - drugs needed. :-/
Die stars die!

Cutting out hundreds of stars with sexy utility knife courtesy daddy (saviour supremis) gives a wholllle new perspective on the term "seeing stars". Really. Lovemy parents and owe them big time. They're helping a great deal saving my ass. Whatever little I earn from this wil prolly go towards a humungazoid chocolate fr dad and dinner for them.
Tired and not sleeping - maybe that coffee worked? Usually doesn't. My arms are weary and yet I keep typing.

Randy is a bit better. This is good. Was worried about him alld ay while I did work and wasn't able to get online to check up on him.

Will be out of the loop for a couple days more. Will write respective e-mails after job done - hopefully arms will not fall off before this time. :)
Love you all.

No I wasn't flipping the bird at my reading public. A girl can't show off her nailpolish in peace. Yeh well screw you too!
I HATE STARS!

And that's all I have to say. Hands achy and tired. Let's hope I have enough energy for tomorrow. Gawd. Hate stars :P

Like the colour? It's not exactly exactly it considering scanner (hey I don't have a digicam ok!) was opened slightly and light reflected brilliantly. Also that's my middle finger.

My fingers hurt...horribly. Have been chopping up chrome tubing with a nasty tube cutter that hurts fingers. Got a pile of work yesterday, so I started with the hardest longest thing first. Wheee foil, ribbon, pretty pretty.

My mom just got in. She parties more than I do. Shameful? It's 4 am goddammit. I was home doing work and watching...god knows what on tv. Oh right I saw some Michael Douglas show though I think I was concentrating on chrome.

Mmm sleepy. 1200 stars...600 pieces of chrome and more. Dear God! I gettin paid yay!

Have managed to miss James' exhibition to which no one was willing to carry me, so am rather miffed about such circumstances. I'll see today if can inveigle some unwitting persona con carro. :-/ Am unloved. Need art and daddy won't go - he's sick. Still hacking and coughing annoying the hell out of me. No more DS or FFX for me this week :( I figure I'll stay in today and do more chrome cutting...else i'll do stars :P

*snore*

I worry about my friends. Here I thought I was in a slump huh? Then I think to myself that I'm the luckiest bastard on the planet. *sigh*

My hand hurts. Must be getting old. Played marathon like 5 hours or more straight of Dungeon Siege. You can tell I'm jaded huh? :P It was nice to be lost there for a while, getting lost in dungeons etc. I am going to dream it tonight.

Had weird spooky dreams last night. Fuck It's Saturday already.

The net is being annoyingly slow.

Blogging away my troubles, I find is not helping at this time. I suppose. I'm in a bad slump. Horrible it's been. Sleepy really. If I ponder anymore on the topic of my life lacking something, I'll explode. Ugh.
No one is commenting.

Is anyone out there?

I wonder.

*mumble*

I've noticed you around

Uhm

I find you very attractive

Would you ...?

*wave*

Lain DVD 2 seen. Right, sooo am half confused ... lord. Someone get me a DVD Rom for Christmas so I won't need the tv all the time! Argh.

Arts finally blogged. Yay! Love that bastard. I'm still laughing at his Sims addiction. Told him I'd never entrust him with a baby considering his 2 sim babies were taken away ... scary!!!

Officially utterly surrounded by couples. My god. More and more ...like 2 per day. This is disturbing. Needing to dive into work and forget this stuff for a while. Again. However, how long will this last? When I finally don't care, something always comes up that makes me. At least work stuff is coming up which is guh-reat. Wonderful indeed. Really really great.

Gods. Need super secret blog. Too many people reading this now. Cannot rant and bad talk as I wish. Will I got to hell for this (and meet up with Dr� and the gang?) Dani warned me again today to be good to boys else will suffer from relationship karmic backlash type things. Oh well looky that already there. Pft. Sleepy to heck. Eyes closing.

*looks at list*
Nope I don't want to talk to you, you or you. *block*

I had a pretty relaxing weekend, taking in my fair share of surfer boys. I didn't stick around yesterday at the beach where the competition was because I don't think I fit into the teeny bopper Westmoorings smoking drinking lamer crew. Saturday afternoon I could have sworn the guy I was scoping for like an hour, was this dude I took a liking to a few years ago. Still not sure, but very much resembles him. Gods. Yes there were older ones, hot ones (bodies to die for) et al, yet I wussed out and went to chill with the old people. We drove up to Matelot. Far. Very far indeed. The coast was beautiful.

Why give up checking out a tonload of hard bodied bastards for landscape? Dunno. If I had people, maybe. My cousin's younger, and his friend is...bleh.
I'm tired. Not physically. Just...everything. No I didn't pick up, no I didn't try to either. Shut up while I mope in my bath tub of salt. :)

In other news, have finally finished Return of The King. I know I know it was about time.
To Stace congrats on not tripping in borrowed shoe etc and on other fronts. ;)
Have gotten tan. I believe.
Have to write many e-mails. Eeek.
Daddy actually has a bad cold - this is a surprise because usually he can handle himself. I got home to a hacking and coughing dad. Weird. Usually that's me sounding like that. Christ. Poor daddypoo.

I would rant more, but I think the TV's free now and I have some serious catching up to do with Lain-watching and so-forth.
Right after I talk to Danny and Stacey and Michael and Vance and Scar and uh whoever else.

Hmm. Orange Sky definitely helps my mood. Doh lemme buss a slap in yuh ass!!!!!

Rofl Stef has gotten a flame on his guestbook!

11 pm. Ugh.

*looks @ Rav*
Hmm.

Right so I'm off from tomorrow morning to Balandra for the weekend. Yay. Surfers for me? I hope. Lol. Gods I am tired.
That sun today was a killer. Melter! Argh!

Sleeeepppy.
Have a good weekend folks love ya! *muah*