Pooh. I'm so sorry Asha and Cintra. My condolences. Gah.

Yay European Film Festival! Gah. $10.00 a show is not cool though.
Yay have week extra for presentation.
Pooh. Still going to finish it asap so have more time free.

As for the bithday boy : *SMOOCHES* Horner man. *ducks* Hahaha. Woo.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BITCH!!!!!
*snicker* Old man. Happy day labster! Woof.

Oh gawd it's hot.

At least they could have spelt it right. Grr. So uhm hopefully my picture will not be in the newspaper!

I'm a tired child. I have tons of bloody homework to do. Looks like it's only gonna get harder. That isn't bad of course but oh God we have a presentation to do next week Tuesday and I don't knwo how tha fuck I'm finishing everything. Things to be graded. Ack!!!!!!

:(

Alrighty. Need sleep or something. Should start design work though. I like this class! Today I started drawing like 8 am and didn't finish till about 1:30. Dayum Hand was hurting by the end. I know I procrastinated, but I was getting artist's block all of yesterday! Gah! I think my work went down alright though. *sigh* Hope I get a good grade! This next pieces must be bloody brilliant.

One guy said to me last night, "I don't like girls who hang out with lots of guys, they tend to be kinda tough". No kidding asshole. There's your proof right there. Tee hee. Blah I think guys who like girly girls are just bloody control freaks. That's all. I don't think they enjoy the idea of sharing power or anything of the sort. Funny thing is that they end up hanging with the tom boys and bad talk the girly girls with them. Underneath it all they're there wishing they had one of those flittery girlies. Course that's just one possibly way of looking at it. :)

If I'm to take a hiatus from all of this I will probably be bloggingl ongas sblogs at a time because I've cut myself off from everyone. When communication is key right now, I really need to balance my schedule. How? I don't have a bloody clue. I more than likely will be doing some more animation work in the upcoming months and for that I NEED to talk to people. I also have school and projects and studying to do. I have freelance work to do. Ack. I don't know how Matthew does it.

Yesterday I was at Animae Caribe again so I was there being overly social. I haven't really done that in a while so it was a breath of fresh air. I woke Chris up and dragged him to the art gallery to see some graduating students' work then we headed to the festival. As soon as we walked in Camille ushered us upstairs to a discussion on the whole Animation industry and all of that. Was very interesting. Isn't it amazing how you can always get people's vibe as soon as they start to talk.

There were artists, businessmen, sycophants, assholes who were getting the job done, general assholes... a plethora of personalities. Very interesting combo no doubt. I am looking forward to see when all of these clash and there are huge arguments on the forums we set up. I think by now I'm infamous for my bitchiness (har dee har) so woo hoo! Ack now I'm seeing traces of one of my exes traits I hated so much...looking for good arguments to win and being bitchy about them. Bleh.

I guess in the end you become what you hate the most. Sorta depressing.

Later on Dirk and I ended up going to the Gala event which was just important people dressing up and talking. Yay the government gave Camille some $. Yay!! Course I'm sure that just barely covered the expense of the festival this year. I told Kayode not to take pictures of me. He did. Bleh. Hopefully they will not end up in the papers. Ack. Social social. If I have to attend any more of those I think I'll be needing to sell some paintings to get me better clothes.

Finally saw all the animation shorts submitted! Roger's won which was great! Congrats Roger! It was pretty well done and very depressing. Lol. He definitely deserves the awards! Yes 2! Kickass! Course Matthew's shone again, but they gave the award to Lonsdale instead of HIM. Bleh. Ah well. Hmph. Advertising agencies.

Right so onto animation. We have established a bit more this year that we have to try harder to get together and talk and that kind of thing. Hackett I need to talk to you about that as well. I'll be roping in as many people as I can to participate. I will only accept serious, interested individuals. I can't take on any shithounds and talkers. We're all talkers yes, but hey at least some of us make the effort sometimes. It's really inspiring when you see the energy though. Really is. So here I am inspired once again.

In other news I need to do some design work so goodbye! Write me!

Justin you fucker you've been here all this fucking time and didn't fucking call till earlier and didn't bloody well call back when you got cut off? You bitch! All fucking week you could have told me something! Last bloody weekend too. What the fuck? No I am not calling. I don't wanna disturb anyone on their last night or something. You know I am not calling you house either. Have a good flight. I love you still :P

I finally saw Minority Report. Finally! Not bad at all. I liked the lighting. Not unlike A.I. though I don't really want to compare the both, but they're similar in a few ways. There I go with shallow pseudo-reviews again. I am tired. I just finished a dissection of a critique by some lame critic who said nasty things about 28 Days Later. No wonder I'm exhausted.

Have things to do...bleary eyed. Must...sleep.

"Why can't you try and face me? You fucking disappoint me" - Vacant - Tapeworm cover by APC

No I'm not moody - I just thought that line stuck out. It's just groovy ya know. Hehe.

Animae Caribe is going on and I suggest you go. Tomorrow and Saturday the shorts submitted this year should be showing. We didn't do anything this year. Hehehe. Saw some of the old folks, met some new ones today. Very cool people. *sigh* Still not seeing many female animators though. Very sad.
I got to do a script writing workshop today and that was pretty awesome. I can't really afford anymore though. I would like to but man oh man...it's tough. $350 for one? Ack. A tad much for me at this point. Sorry. I take what I get I guess. I'll advertise though :P.

Seem to be meeting a few other cool people of late. I feel my socialising getting back in groove. I'm actually talking again. Yay! Earlier this week sucked, but now it it much much better.

I am sleepy. Toodles.

Lol quote of the year!
certain-person-who-should-actually-know-what-my-voice-is-like : aye saddis.. my piggy was getting hard hearing yuh voice.. (thumbs up emoticon) .. it on!

*cracks up* Yeh whatever. Someone was hungry. Sorry No food tonight buddy boy.
Vee told me I should be on the radio or start up one of those phone line thingys. Hmm. That could earn me extra $ for real. Haha I'd be so good at it if I could stop giggling like an idiot.

I have so much fucking information to compile, it's not funny. How the fuck is this going to get done I don't bloody well know. Ack. Must get up early tomorrow. Think I'll go to bed and read some more. I've reached The Silver Chair so I think that's going well. I think I can safely digress and get to surfing through fashion sites.

Rowrr. Diesel and Urban Outfitters have cool stuff. Dammit I am a brand whore! Okay not really, but surfing online turns you into one pretty quickly.

Tuesday I ended up at the mall walking around with D and my eyes lit up with the huge "SALE" signs. Sale at Sincerely Yours. *little whine*

Looking through this reminds me how out of style I am. Oh God. Cuffs and berets and bucket hats are in. Let's see what else. Bra strap headband? Lol yeah like you'll catch me dead with that on my head. Cute shoulder bags are alright. Beanies are definitely not fit for my round face...plus I look like an elf. Hmm ballet flats are in? Cool actually. I like the men's shoes and clothes of late. Very funky. I feel sorry for local guys because there's a lack of really nice stuff for them. It's the same shit over and over. So boring.

Nice shades around! Ooh ooh! Either I switch to transition lenses or get new shades. *ponder* Cheap shades are annoying though. I have to keep switching them and that irritates me. I don't think contacts are a good option for me considering how careless and clumsy I could be. I have nightmares about losing them.

Shit this is getting me depressed. I have no money for this stuff either. If I'm saving I'm saving. Clothes come last. Going away and getting a digital camera should be top priority. I just bought myself a matching anklet and bracelet set to match my necklace that I don't ever take off though. Yeh me bad.

Should sleep. Have to get up by 7 I think. Yikes.

*stupid look*
Blehahahaha. Woo. Oh I forgot to post this link last night. It's so hilarious! Made my day. Thanks Rich! Hulk's Diary. Rofl. Woo.

It was a great day actually. Yesterday was somewhat fun. Haha was very bad. Oh well. *grin*
I am tired will blog later.

I really have to learn to deal with asswipes. Control my temper. Really. I have been dealing badly with them all day. Yeh I'm anal I know that, but come on, you can only be so stupid. Tsk. Me? Halo only. Again the title of bitch has been won. Yeh fuck off you bitches. No don't fucking cross me.

I should relate the story to you but I don't want to bore you. All I can say is that I'm sick of weepy whiny little girls and women. Oh my bloody lord. Have some fucking balls. You'd think by now, in this modern age that women have become just a fucking tad more educated and can / would want to stand up for themselves. I hate that. You have a problem with me? Spit it out fucker. Bring it to fuck on. Don't go weeping to your husbands and boyfriends - they can't do jack shit for you when all is said and done. I don't mean to be derogatory to my own kind but don't be a cunt.

Class was good enough today. Apparently we have to do the whole GPA marking scheme. Man oh man. What fun. I am a competitive bitch. I have alotta work to do so I expect not to be bothered much ('cept by my honeys). It's alot but I expect I'll be enjoying it. I also have an extra week to perk up my last piece before it goes for assessment. Eep. I would want it to be perfect. Alas I don't know if I will have time to do it over, which is really what I want to do.

Gah so many things to do today. Eeep.

Thanks to Tiffypoo for Am�lie. Whee! It was most excellent! I guess I'll be watching it alot. No time now to break it apart, but I definitely enjoyed it. Oh the characters intertwined. Woo!

Awww @ Arthur. How sweet. A bloggy apology. *tear* He's such a sweetheart. If I was that girl I'd forgive him instantly.

*sigh* I should sleep.

It's hot and I should go finish my work before I go to class. I have no bloody labels for all this shit. Shit piece of work. I don't know if I'll let you see it. Nuh uh. It sucks. I have to go see what the others did. *sniff*

I have a constant headache.

Well I didn't go anywhere shopping today. Good thing because I didn't sleep that much last night. Right now just chilling talking to Chris (omg the missing one!) and catching up. It's hot. Wonder if I should sleep. Hum dee dum. Can't stand my room being in such a bloody mess. Too many art supplies all over floor. Pieces of foil, ribbon, paper, beads, tissue, glue, bits of..everything. My goodness. I really hope this shit turns out well. I hate to see what happens when I start painting. I doubt that will happen this semester though.

Hahaha. I'm fucked. It's 3 a fucking m and I'm awake talking to Tiff about art school - the experience we share. Aren't we a sad little duo? Yep well I've realised this University life isn't slacking off, playing pool and All 4's and going to the beach in the middle of the week. I'm wondering if, at some point, I'll get friends out of the deal and or a social life again. The possibility seems faint. Wait - did I have a social life before?

Finally watched 8 Mile. That wasn't too bad I suppose. I've seen much worse. Brittany Murphy is so ugh though. Yuck.

I should sleep. Avin will probably want me up early to go help him shop. *sigh* The things I do. At least I'll get out of the house right?

There's a one blank space left to finish my art assignment for Monday. God my brain is so tired being creative. You'd think after a time you wouldn't have to exert that much energy to be so brilliant, that you'd already have it in you because you're oh so talented. It's all fuckery. You're not really brilliant. No one is.

That's sleep talking. Good night.

I really don't know what I'm doing with this project. I suppose I'll see on Monday. I'll realise I'm not as creative as I thought and that I need to see things even more differently. That's my greatest fear doing this thing. Alas I am a perfectionist and I want to be the best in the class. Ugh. I hate the piece already and I feel very inferior (even though I haven't seen anyone else's work). I feel left out because they are doing so much more than I am. What the hell can I do to enhance my experience and be just as good/better even though I'm doing less courses? Dammit.

This afternoon wasn't as irritating as expected. I don't think I mind doing this compulsory English class. I suppose I'll be even more picky with grammar and spelling. My Lord - subordinate clauses. Remind me to re-read my Grammar stuff. There are a couple others to do, which I hope to get done with by next summer. I believe (from what I heard) that I can get summer school done to quicken this whole program. This would be fantastic! Heck even if I switch to full time, I want to get as much done as possible I think.

I spent a couple hours in the Art library after class, reading. I don't really think it was pertinent to anything I should be doing, but will eventually be. I think I may want to spend some more quality time there. It's nice and cold. Whee!

I haven't gotten quite near the gym yet. Yes yes shoot me. Tomorrow I don't even think I will reach to campus. I think I may go gallery hunting. I could stay at home and do my design assignment, but what fun would that be? The house is hot during the day. I may as well check out some of the new galleries. There are many. I have to keep up-to-date with all of them.

I'm so tired now. I said I'd reserve time to talk about the movie but just have no energy left. Tetron is evil. This is yet another Tetrinet-like addiction. Uber-evil.

"In a dark time, the eye begins to see." - Theodore Roethke

You'd think I'd already be on campus doing productive type things, or doing my assignments and all of that tra la la.
It's hot and I'm ducking the sun. Ack. Must go now :(

28 Days Later. Whee.
Ooof sleep.

Right fuck. Must...call..James... Hope he's fine. I am so very tired.

Yes I know many and all of them are sweetiepies. Huwwo I love you all.

Had first Design class today and it was actually cooler than expected. Oudit kicks ass! Actually have somewhat itsy bit of hope that artistic open-minded coolass people on my level (male) exist in Trinidad. Hottie with wow eyes in class. My god. Shame though. Shall say no more till I can be assured I am not being scrutinized. *snort*

I have homework. Omg. Hard homework. Brain running on empty though. Will attempt later.

Finally saw Monster's Ball. Whoa. That is all I have to say for now because brain going in hibernate mode.

Fiona Apple mood. What's new? This time she's on the stereo crooning away about lost love and hurt and all that bullshit. I can probably do the same but I don't want you to know my deep dark fucked up secrets. The ones that are slowly eating away at me and constantly testing my patience and sanity. The ones that are just masked by a sarcastic smile. :) Oh yeh it's glowing baby. *flashes smile* I swear I can write a book as it is with all this stuff that is going on. Maybe I should.

*looks around*
Hey guys. It's me hermit lady. I've been around but not really.

Ugh James C was in an accident yesterday morning so I will have to call him when I think he'll be in better shape to talk. I hate that shit. Grr especially when it happens to friends!!! Bah I say. Hope he feels better soon.

That made Jus postpone his flight by a a few days which is good. Maybe I'll actually be able to see him before he goes. Hoping to see 28 Days Later at some point. Still have not seen Pirates of the Caribbean. Alas no company. Dev? Hello? Waiting.

My cousin e-mailed me with his review of 28 Days Later and wasn't really impressed. He also mentioned that The Order was better. Guess we'll have to see.

I finally went to the National Museum yesterday. Roped in dad to carry me art supply shopping and then artifact browsing. What fun. This is supposed to be homework really and I think I should actually write down some points for discussion in class. Hum ho. I suppose I can go all in depth and all of that horse shit. Just not really in the mood right now.

Dad, however, is a genius. The man with much effort (and lack of cute Dremel type thing) cut lovely vents on the top of my tower for the other fan. Wondrously inventive he is. They were saying you can't open it but nothing ole daddy-o can't remedy. Rip out the rivets and replace the bastards. Muhahaha. Heck he even painted the venty thing. Yay my daddy is cooler than your daddy. Hah!

Dum dee dum. I should sleep. Today I should do some work. I should read my art history like a good girl and write down homeworky things. *grin* Someone asked me just now if I'll be in school tomorrow. Hum. Maybe not. I would really like to go to the library though and get some reading shit done. I wonder if the network's better than last week. *sigh*

Arthur speaks of love. Hm. Good for him and anyone else who can speak of it. Did I congratulate him yet on his coupledom? If not, congrats you. It's lovely feeling. Indeed.

I will leave you now with this very inspirational, breathtaking picture from Noah Grey. Love him so much. Cove.

Happy Birthday Cleggypoo! *slap*
Hehehe.

Gosh I'm sleepy. Haha it's amazing how tired I am after not even a full day or anything. I really don't know how ful timers do this stuff. I spent a couple hours in the library (har de har I feel so studenty) this morning before my class. Whew. Think have managed to find a cool enough Foundation English lecturer. I hope.

Surprise surprise ad an essay to do in class today. Ugh. Man it's been years. Ugh!

Need nap.

Happy Anniversary Jus and Miche.
Happy Belated Birthday to James H whose birthday was yesterday.

Well first class this evening was Art & Society - formerly Art in Context? I think my department has to do something about distributing information though. Weirdness abound. Humph..artists again. So we're doing Art History to start with. Joy joy whoopeedoo. Interesting yes, but I have to read a lot more. A lot. Let's hope I stay awake reading this stuff because it isn't pretty.

I already have a project to do, 2 essays to write by mid semester, and homework for next week, plus supplemental reading. I do wonder how the full time folks are handling it all. Dear God I already feel overwhelmed, but I do plan to have a head start and delve straight into things. I cam ehome and started some research, so before I go to bed I'll write down a nice list of things to find in the library tomorrow. Yes yes I'll be spending some time there before class tomorrow and probably a good bit otherwise.

That's it so far. Our class is huge - 40 of us - biggest in CCFA ever. We're even puttingout the fiinal years. Eep. Poor Tiff - ohhh they must be so disappointed they don't have class for thenext 2 weeks. Not a bad array of people - mostly girls I think and oddly enough a fair number of guys! Males yes I need those. Thought I was going to die with the girls. Thank God for the rest of people I know on campus (some). Been ducking many of them mind you. Little too hyper for me.

Most of the newbies are very hyper. I was observing them throughout the time of registration and last night etc. Good Lord. Some are alright, but I think most are way too hyper and...new. Especially the little chickidees. I guess it's good that I've been around and all of that. Advantage. Muahahaha. I still have people not believing that I'm now starting. God I am so evil. Lightening will strike. *snort*

Must behave.

Yummy. Hot guys who smell just as good are always winners. Hehe. Nice interlude when one has noone fun to smell. Tempation. Bah. So anyways, no I didn't get any. *looks @ labster* Stewps.

I am pooped and about ready to head to dreamland. I have my first class tomorrow so that should be interesting indeed. Thank goodness I don't have to wake up early. J is distracting me. Good distraction though. ;)

Where is Justin?

So I'm an official UWI student. Shoot me. I've always said that. You're free to do so now (okay no maybe after the first week okay?).
I'm getting a surge of "welcome to hell" well-wishers. Sherwin's exact words were "Oh I'm so sorry you're here". Funnily enough all of this (despite half-traumatic events last week) has left me undeterred. I don't think I shall start on those because they're gone so I'm starting anew.
I should blog about all the shit that has happened in between, but I don't feel like dwelling on the shit.

It's a new start I guess.
I've missed blogging and have had a few requests to hurry up and blog. *snicker* Okay okay.
When you're offline you tend to have much to think about. *sigh*

I have things to do this week so that should keep me very occupied. Sorry it isn't longer.

The truth is nothing's been going on for the past 3 weeks or so. I have a few accounts of little dramas here and there I guess. Bah. Very tired. Eyes popping out of head. Must sleep. Will blog soon I promise. Then you'll complain it's too long. Hehehe suckers.