Alive...and not goin to be by end of next week most likely. Gack. Lotsa work. *wave*

Mis urr ubble.

Eeeeehhh. What's up world? :(

Disappearing

I'll be just checking e-mail for a while. I really need to get down and dirty with my work, because I have portfolio and journal reviews coming up and it's going to be notsofun I am imagining. Wish me luck! Will be around but not really - just for short short periods. Catch ya later folks. I love you!

Thank You

To you few who help to maintain my sanity when I'm going absolutely nuts.
To you who read my mind and know when something's wrong.
Ok so after I talked to D, Stace, Stef, Vance and others I think I'm a wittle better. It was a rough day today and I was feeling a little down about things. Things things things. Nice rainy day - good for pondering my life and everything surrounding it.
Will write more soon I pwomise.

So sleepy. Need beddy.

I have a class this morning and I am thinking about going to the library for the rest of the day. Eep. Of course my priority should be design work for Monday, but on the other hand, I need to do some reading. I'm really not in any kind of mood to stay at home. I'm running away from work so much. Hardeehar. Procrastination causes you to do the strangest things.

Yesterday I was out all day with Cin. Long long day but it was groovy. I have been exposed to a whole other life and lifestyle. Am very uncultured somehow. *sigh* That's a whole other story.

GAH!!!! Why is it the annoyingly stupid ones who like me? Like I should be grateful or something. Fuck that! I'm sorry. No. I might be bored but I'm not THAT bored.

*Backspace*

Bleh. I finished some work but there's still a pile of design to be started/finished/redone. Mmm fun. My favourite class....what? It is honestly my favourite class. Stop looking at me like that. I'm just afraid I won't finish and it won't be good enough and I'll get a B and all of that. Urk.

*scratches leg* Ok sleepytime.

Santana is the shit

I am in the middle of doing my English homework, which should have been e-mailed since yesterday. There was no deadline but I would have preferred it to have been done by yesterday. Alas, my hope for doing supplementary essays have been dashed. I fear I cannot get those done now, with time running out to do my design coursework. Eeek.

I have missed my 2 only art classes this week and not that happy about it. Heard I didn't miss that much, but still. Hah am I a nerd? Bleh.

I was really not feeling well though. I do have some good drugs now that help immensely. I'd still be in a mess if it wasn't for my pharmacist who absolutely rocks. Do you even care to read about my unhealthy state? Didn't think so. However, I am so very tempted to include gory details of my chesty cough and the like. :)

I just blogged on my other blogs, checked everyone's journal and now doing my own whining. Not much to whine about tonight. I am mostly all alone online. Everyone's asleep or busy. I should be happy really. Santana helps somewhat. Samba Pa Ti. Only recently I realised that "Pa Ti (for you)" was how it was written and not "Patty". I had heard it before in my younger days and had never seen it written out. I used to think, wow, that Patty huh, must have been some chic.

I'm switching back to that shitty English thing and just cringing. I so don't want to do it. Bleh. I know, procrastination. I have to do it in stages. This will not do for the frigging exam Trace. I write better on the computer than on paper. I have grown so used to this cut and paste and delete thing that I just can't get out of it. My essays would be a lot better if I had a fucking computer in front of me for the exam. Must..write..on..paper.

*sigh* I go to my doom.

Drugs v good

Well Arts is sicky too. Least he's companionised. I am not a happy bunny even though I didn't even go to class today. Saw exam schedule and that doesn't make it any better. Have a gajillion pieces still to do. I could do nothing but attempt to pull out some paper. I had to put it straight back because my nose started up running like a frigging tap. Now my whole head is congested. Drugs good. Of course time will tell. I have started a new one. Let's hope this damnn thing works. I cannot miss another class! Also hoping did not pass flu on to anyone else, especially Cin cuz would feel reallllly horrible.

I should blog about the weekend but I just have no strength left. Lord. So many people, so many things learnt, so many new experiences. Really worth the weekend.

Doing Work?

Happy Birthday Anand and Jade!
Still not quite sure why I do this for folks who don't read my blog. Bloggiquette I suppose. No that's my copyright dammit. Stef shuddup.

*giggle @ Arts* Indeed I do know that feeling. Of course it's usually that it's going to be a horrid day or something.

James B are you okay? E-mail me!

So uhm I have a storyboard, balance composition, and negative space pieces to start/finish. Uh huh. Going going.

Tomorrow night

Uh yeah I'm sitting here very distracted looking at artwork from Michel Gagn� and am having artsy thoughts floating around in my head. Hah Fabien's fault :P I see it's about 1/4 to 10 and Carnivale is starting at 10. Stupid DST. I could have been in bed at 7 but many things came up.

Ack. Thank goodness Mikey and Kevy's alright. Ugh. The family is lucky and alive and all is well. *sigh* Am sick of hearing friends getting robbed and or otherwise...

Thankfully today went well and made a few good contacts. Yay! Managed not to cough and hack in anyone's face so let's hope no one gets sick. Eep! I'm feeling bleh still but drugs are great! Guhreat! Muahahaha!
Uhm I wonder why Pete Droge never quite made it. I mean now he's hip with Shawn Mullins and this other dude (can't remember the name right now) in The Thorns.

Where is my portfolio I wonder...?

I need sleep. I have to wake up uber-early and don't have any idea how I'll do that. Also have a pile of homewok to finish. *snort* Let's see how much inspiration I can muster tomorrow night.

Really enjoying the workshop so far. Very informative and I pity the bastards who missed out on the chance. I'll still help organise them though. I'm oh so good at organizing. *evil look*

Whine

You know me, I despise being sick. Throat sore. (*still cursing guy in class*) Hoping it won't get too bad for the weekend. Really cannot afford to be sick. Also don't want to spread stinky germs to anyone. Lord. Must sanitize self. Drinking way too much oj which I was was fresher. No lime. No honey. Yucky dissolvable Vitamin C. Redoxon. Blech.

Oh and work to do. I started. Blah. Just came online to send an e-mail really. Had to pop on Blogger.

Bitching mode on

I think I'm getting the flu. *curses coughing and hacking dude in class silently* I have a workshop for the whole weekend and that is just good timing for this. Haven't started an iota of work yet which is absolutely terrible.

Good luck Stac. My thoughts are with you.
Oh and good luck to Stace with her presentation.

Oh man. Seeing my boys (some) of them again. *sniff* I miss you all!!!! Oh gosh...seeing the bunch like that just reminds me of how much I miss you all. It suddenly struck me like a ton of bricks. I hope to see you for Christmas...well some of you anyway. Jus are you coming?

Matt Stuart rocks! Great photography.

*sigh*
Am half drugged and sleepy. Guess I should sleep.

And Do D Duck...

"...Rubber duck duck rubber duck duck duck rubber duck duck rubber duck rubber duck duck rubber duck rubber duck duck..." I'm sorry if that's what I woke up with in my head this morning. I saw this on Sesame Street after a long long time. It was a couple days ago though so I can't quite understand how it's just popped up.

Had very strange dream last night. Something about my Design lecturer being mean and evil. Hah. Go figure. It also included what looked like the yard of my primary school. I am sure some psychiatrist would have a field day with this.

Christian said I need stop smoking crack, but as they say, "Monkey see monkey do".

Oops

Sorry Rich I missed your birthday. I was so stressed out last week! Only the other day I realised and had to check today to see what date it was. Am v v sorry. You are allowedto disown me. I found my birthday book eventually though. It was tucked in between other books atop my messy desk. Happy Belated old chap!!! Hope it was good!!

Happy Belated Anniversary Stace and Stef (mush blogger extraordinaires! It's been a lovely year. Now I feel old and lifeless and loveless. Enjoy it guys - all the best!! I love you both.

Wondering

I guess I like early morning quiet when noone is bugging me. Sometimes I want people bugging me. I sit online on MSN looking at my list and want to delete half of them. I must talk to about 5% or less of my now very full list. I keep having to delete people who I don't talk to and add the people that I need to talk to. Of course it starts off just fine and then it dies. I guess everything goes in phases. Trillian is such a waste of time - I tried starting another separate list but nooooooo it went and fucked up. Now I think about 120 people (if they are around) have me added twice to their list. Hopefully they'll delete me at some point. I don't think I'll be logging in again unless I get a better client.

What kind of shit am I typing? It's after 1 am and will probably be 1:30 by the time I finish this. A half and hour wasted. When I should be writing English homework, or researching my final design project I'm sitting here doing...this. My nose is stuffy because I slept with the fan and...well my nose is strange. Anyways...

I sit here pondering and hoping that guy in class next to me didn't spread his germs while he was hacking and coughing for 2 hours.

I wonder if I'll ever get to see Matrix Revolutions the way how my life is going. I also wonder if I give a shit. I hate English class being at 1. Bleh. Alas.

Despite reading everyone's blogs every day I wonder if they're really alright. Despite my whiny, self-absorbed way I do care about people - more than they realise. Oh look there's the attempt at justification of whininess.

Wondering why the fuck I can't find a better word than "whininess". Guffaw. Dumbass.

I wonder if anyone truly gives a shit about me. Maybe a few do. I go out of my way to help artists especially and they just don't respond. Honestly I feel the need to do more and just haven't gotten enough time to organise properly. Okay i've been putting it off for more than one reason, one just being pure procrastination, another - fear of failure. I figure it's time to stop being such a bloody wuss and start getting the things I want done.

But really, I wonder why people are so blas�. I wonder what's the root of blas� and why I don't know it because I did French. Wondering why I'm moving off-topic. See? This is how it goes and things never get done.

Wondering what would happen if I could get more people involved. Suppose I fuse all of these tiny artsy farsty cliques? I guess in that way we become just one bigger clique. It's got its advantages I suppose. It's finding your cliquey balance that's the issue.

I'm sorry if I'm hopping around the topics. I am very confused little individual. No wonder my essays suck ass. It never ends.

Maybe I should sleep now. Maybe I should do work. Maybe I'll do something else completely unrelated.

I'm thinking that this is one of the crappier posts I've done in a while.
See...look at the time. 30 minutes indeed for this thingy.

Grrrrrr

V depressed about work. It's not going how I want it to be going. Ugh ugh ugh. I think this week should be my week to catch up. I guess. Lord English homework to do too. I hate those essays. *sigh*
As for art. Gawd. I want to go back and do all those pieces over. I really wish I had the time to do them as thoroughly as I'd like to. :( I think for me to do the work I want to do I shouldn't ever sleep. I need that much time. Goddammit.

My God...Ack. No work done. Pulling hair out of head. Essays to finish in a few hours and no design work done. Have quiz which have not read single thing for. Hah! This is going to be a great day.