Tuesday, February 04, 2003

Went downtown today with Anna, after all had blown over, after I finally began to understand why she avoided me, after it all made sense again.
I really wish we were better friends. I wish I could act around her the way I do around Thomasina or Will. Today, I was more of myself, calmer and more normal than I used to be around her, but there was still some hesitance. She doesn't get my jokes, doesn't play along with the things I do randomly, so after I say or do something, there is a moment when I just feel stupid. Sometimes, I really wish I didn't care to touch her or anything, so that I could just enjoy her company and be myself.

posted by McKain | 10:55 PM